How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[Lane]

Lonely, though my loneliness is eclipsed by resignation.

I get it.

 

[Lane]

Hopeless

 

[Angie]

It is the last few weeks of the semester and I am feeling a mix of calm and frantic, strange feelings.

On the home front, I am considering moving to another apartment in town, and that is stressful

 

[Angie]

I'm maybe slightly less anxious than usual. Perhaps I can sleep without nightmares. They've been chronic and I'm so tired of the fear. I'm having to force myself to stay present, otherwise I keep ping-ponging from worry for the future, back into the recent past, and then adding terrible sadness and the lack of control to it, which brings me to a very bad set of thoughts.

I really get where you are coming from I think.
For me, the nightmares are so awful, they make me think I am an awful person, to even dream such.
I have sadness too, crushing sadness at times.
I hope you have some better nights

 

[Inastorm]

It's so hard when you're upset at work. I hope you feel better and can maybe do something special for yourself.

Thanks Lane, i'm just struggling so much, I put so much energy into a 27 year relationship and feel really betrayed and let down by them. I could never imagine they could treat me like this. They are the only person ive ever loved and as im not a people person, the only person I liked to be around. Im now all alone and i just want a hug from them. I am so confused...

 

[puffymilk]

I'm feeling pretty good, I guess exercise really did help

 

[Windhover]

@Angie hugs back. Out (or inside) on a different plane of existence where we're connected to the rest of our selves; there I imagine angel like creatures who can sit with us at the edge of their world, and enable our nightmares and sadness to be fully obliterated.

 

[AvidFan]

Tired. Had an early start, was doing OK for a long Monday then the buses fouled up, I got in and my mind started spiralling a bit about work. I've got a heavy project deadline I need to get in. I've heard nothing about the promotion thing I applied for so am assuming I didn't do as well as I'd hoped. The company is not very communicative and it's very often a case that no news is bad news, as they tend to only invite you to the next step if you're successful, rather than inform you of failure if you're not.... Suppose there's always a chance they could jump out of the woodwork when I least expect it, but for now I've extinguished my hopes and will just plod on with the current set up. It's OK. I need to go to bed.

 

[Lane]

Thanks Lane, i'm just struggling so much, I put so much energy into a 27 year relationship and feel really betrayed and let down by them. I could never imagine they could treat me like this. They are the only person ive ever loved and as im not a people person, the only person I liked to be around. Im now all alone and i just want a hug from them. I am so confused...

My sister just cut me off years ago. I sent her letters and later found out that she didn't even read them and threw them in the trash. So yes, people can be cruel. It definitely hurts deeply and I'm sorry that you're going this. Have you looked at the personality of the other person, the person that isn't talking to you anymore? Maybe they have issues of their own. I say this because perhaps it will make it possible for you to deal with this situation better. My thoughts are with you inastorm.

 

[LumberJack]

I’m in pain. It feels like I’m wrapped up in a large vine with thorns all over it, and it’s tightening around my abdomen, driving the thorns deeper. The sensation is of being suffocated and being stabbed with a thousand tiny needles at the same time.

 

[puffymilk]

A bit anxious

 

[Survivorist]

Today - just better than yesterday. Its already something.

 

[Inastorm]

I’m in pain. It feels like I’m wrapped up in a large vine with thorns all over it, and it’s tightening around my abdomen, driving the thorns deeper. The sensation is of being suffocated and being stabbed with a thousand tiny needles at the same time.

That sound horrible, does anything help the pain? Hope your feeling a bit better soon.

 

[Inastorm]

A bit anxious

What you feeling anxious about?

 

[Inastorm]

Tired. Had an early start, was doing OK for a long Monday then the buses fouled up, I got in and my mind started spiralling a bit about work. I've got a heavy project deadline I need to get in. I've heard nothing about the promotion thing I applied for so am assuming I didn't do as well as I'd hoped. The company is not very communicative and it's very often a case that no news is bad news, as they tend to only invite you to the next step if you're successful, rather than inform you of failure if you're not.... Suppose there's always a chance they could jump out of the woodwork when I least expect it, but for now I've extinguished my hopes and will just plod on with the current set up. It's OK. I need to go to bed.

Hope your feeling a bit more rested today.

 

[AvidFan]

Hope your feeling a bit more rested today.

Not yet, but I'm getting towards completion on my report which will be a relief!

 

[Inastorm]

Not yet, but I'm getting towards completion on my report which will be a relief!

Did you hear back about your promotion?

 

[SillyOldBear]

Concerned

 

[Inanimate]

I feel tempted to contrive some kind of complaint even when I’m not motivated to just so that I don’t have to be alone and forgotten. Not being alone doesn’t have to mean not being okay. Problem is I suck at talking to people otherwise.

 

[AvidFan]

Did you hear back about your promotion?

I've not heard anything. This company is so big and mysterious I might never actually hear anything unless I get to the next round! I had to record an intro video and put it on Youtube, it's not been viewed. This either means they haven't got round to it yet, or they binned the application without bothering to open the video 😂 There are plenty of other opportunities though, and I've finally submitted the report I've been sweating over so I can go back to normality for a bit!