I understand. I too am broken. I feel death is the only fix.[/QUOTE]
I'm sorry you are broken @SillyOldBear. Reminded me of a kid's show which they don't air anymore called tangerine bear. His smile was sewed on upside down, and then he got left in a shop window too long and his fabric changed colours.
And, ah, there's thre rub, in that death is a dissolution of the animal, (us) rather than a restoration of some sort of a wholeness. I wish I could but I can't take a trip in time and un-meet my spouse. I'm fighting to take his mean words out of my endless loop replay.
I'm sorry you are broken @SillyOldBear. Reminded me of a kid's show which they don't air anymore called tangerine bear. His smile was sewed on upside down, and then he got left in a shop window too long and his fabric changed colours.
And, ah, there's thre rub, in that death is a dissolution of the animal, (us) rather than a restoration of some sort of a wholeness. I wish I could but I can't take a trip in time and un-meet my spouse. I'm fighting to take his mean words out of my endless loop replay.[/QUOTE]
I wish you could remove his mean words as well. The old saying "sticks and stones may breaks my bones, but word can never hurt me" is incredibly wrong.
@seabird and @SillyOldBear ... agree with you on the unfortunate power of hurtful words...why do these seem to last longer than any others alas...s to you both
I'm sorry you are broken @SillyOldBear. Reminded me of a kid's show which they don't air anymore called tangerine bear. His smile was sewed on upside down, and then he got left in a shop window too long and his fabric changed colours.
And, ah, there's thre rub, in that death is a dissolution of the animal, (us) rather than a restoration of some sort of a wholeness. I wish I could but I can't take a trip in time and un-meet my spouse. I'm fighting to take his mean words out of my endless loop replay.[/QUOTE]
I hope you know that we never think of yourself as broken, you are a good hearted and natured type here with us and we notice that in you.
Have had a case of the lonelies for awhile now. Wishing I had someone to share my days with, someone actually here in physical form. Getting outside and working in the yard takes up part of my day now and I'm thankful for that, but when I come inside it's hard to feel like I have meaning. Spent entirely too much money on stupid stuff I didn't need to buy and I think that was a result of my need to feel something. Round and round I go in this crazy life.
Not doing so hot my aunt died and I got the news from my cousins facebook page and I lost my grandma last month found that out the same way I’m not close to my family any of them by any means but they are still my family and have been a part of my life in one way or another whether good or bad so I’ve been very anxious. I’ve been wanting to to stay close to my daughter but of course she’s nineteen and is holding down two jobs going to college and in professional orchestra so doesn’t have much time. I’m so worried I’m going to lose her or she is going to lose me I’m also worried I’m going to find out I lost someone I I am not sure I can handle. Losing more people no matter who they are if I know them I can’t lose them I know everybody goes I just can not handle it right now
Sad to hear about the losses for you and your family @Bbear82 It is tough when they come like that in groups. I hope things go well with you staying closer to your daughter. It is busy times and stressful ones. With luck things will improve for you with all going on.
Not doing so hot my aunt died and I got the news from my cousins facebook page and I lost my grandma last month found that out the same way I’m not close to my family any of them by any means but they are still my family and have been a part of my life in one way or another whether good or bad so I’ve been very anxious. I’ve been wanting to to stay close to my daughter but of course she’s nineteen and is holding down two jobs going to college and in professional orchestra so doesn’t have much time. I’m so worried I’m going to lose her or she is going to lose me I’m also worried I’m going to find out I lost someone I I am not sure I can handle. Losing more people no matter who they are if I know them I can’t lose them I know everybody goes I just can not handle it right now
Have had a case of the lonelies for awhile now. Wishing I had someone to share my days with, someone actually here in physical form. Getting outside and working in the yard takes up part of my day now and I'm thankful for that, but when I come inside it's hard to feel like I have meaning. Spent entirely too much money on stupid stuff I didn't need to buy and I think that was a result of my need to feel something. Round and round I go in this crazy life.
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