How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[Gonz]

I probably should know better than to say that, because I know when I'm in that place there isn't anything or anyone that helps.

There’s not much that’ll help when you’re in that place, but having the right things in your life will make it harder to get there.

 

[puffymilk]

Good

 

[Lane]

Not been feeling great these last few days. Low I guess. I’ve a lot going on and spinning a lot of plates to try to survive. My husband has been unpleasant towards me, I am trying to stay quiet so as not to trigger another nasty response. Better if I am subservient. I'm so tired.

Sorry to hear life is hard right now @Holding my breath. I'm so over husbands/boyfriends with an attitude. I hope that you can get some rest and things get easier for you.

 

[Lane]

Bored out of my mind. I don’t work. I’m not in school. I can’t drive anywhere. I don’t have friends. I can’t find a therapist. No hobbies. No purpose. No reason to live.

It's not fair how life is for you Inanimate. I hope some peace comes to you soon.

 

[Lane]

I don’t want to kms. I want to stop wishing I was never born.

Sometimes I feel like I wasn't meant to be on this Earth. I'm glad though that you are a part of our community here.

 

[Lane]

Starting my day off with breakfast at the Amish market. My niece arrived at my house last night from Florida and don't know how long she's staying. She's drinking wine again after last time she was staying with me and I had to bring her to the hospital for inpatient. Its supposed to be no drugs or alcohol.I hope things go smoothly.

 

[puffymilk]

Feeling kinda stupid, but whatever

 

[cev77]

Agitated, bad day. Also I have a headache which isn’t helping. I had some water and took some Tylenol but it didn’t help. I guess I’ll have some more water, too soon for more Tylenol.

 

[Windhover]

There’s not much that’ll help when you’re in that place, but having the right things in your life will make it harder to get there.

Yes. I'm sorry @Inanimate , should've listened to my inner critic and deleted that post.

 

[Winslow]

That reminds me, I had a conversation with my senior Buddhist teacher about feeling suicidal, and not just in a passing mood, but all day every day.

She said that I would still be in pain, and even more pain because the dream of subjective experience would still be there, but even more disoriented to still exist but now I don’t have a body to keep me localized in space and time.

More importantly I would spread additional pain to everyone who cares about me. Goddam I want to get back at those a-holes who have taken advantage of me, not create a bunch of survivor guilt for my loved ones.

The first reason I am not so sure about. I really think that my existence ends when my brain stops telling my lungs to breathe. Nonetheless, she has been right about everything I have disagreed with her on before. I’m not ruling it out.

The second reason is more than sufficient, though. At least it has been, so far.

What did you mean when you said you don't have a body to keep you localized in space and time?

 

[Inastorm]

That reminds me, I had a conversation with my senior Buddhist teacher about feeling suicidal, and not just in a passing mood, but all day every day.

She said that I would still be in pain, and even more pain because the dream of subjective experience would still be there, but even more disoriented to still exist but now I don’t have a body to keep me localized in space and time.

More importantly I would spread additional pain to everyone who cares about me. Goddam I want to get back at those a-holes who have taken advantage of me, not create a bunch of survivor guilt for my loved ones.

The first reason I am not so sure about. I really think that my existence ends when my brain stops telling my lungs to breathe. Nonetheless, she has been right about everything I have disagreed with her on before. I’m not ruling it out.

The second reason is more than sufficient, though. At least it has been, so far.

Are you a buddhist?, I only ask as it's something I have been trying to 'do' for a long time and now found my way as yet.

 

[Inastorm]

Bored out of my mind. I don’t work. I’m not in school. I can’t drive anywhere. I don’t have friends. I can’t find a therapist. No hobbies. No purpose. No reason to live.

As for hobbies, what are you interested in?

 

[Gonz]

Yes. I'm sorry @Inanimate , should've listened to my inner critic and deleted that post.

Not what I meant.

 

[may71]

Forgotten.

Hey everybody it was ClassicsFan's Birthday yesterday, but it looks like a lot of people forgot.

 

[Atreides]

How am I feeling?

I guess I'm doing ok. I moved in with the strangest guy. Can you believe he actually thinks I'm really alive?

 

[Inanimate]

@Inanimate

What about picking up a new hobby, something simple but that interests you a bit. I probably should know better than to say that, because I know when I'm in that place there isn't anything or anyone that helps.

I hope you can feel better, and that you know there's others here on SF who get it, and care.

Not a bad idea. I’d be interested in astrophotography, but it necessitates a bit of an investment, which isn’t feasible right now.

 

[Inanimate]

Yes. I'm sorry @Inanimate , should've listened to my inner critic and deleted that post.

Why? I get wanting to say the right things, but I’d still rather you say something than nothing. I’m not looking for novel solutions, although that would be nice. Your being here is all I could really hope for.

 

[Windhover]

Not what I meant.

Forgive my brain fog, I'm kind of out of it today. Sometimes it seems I sink faster than I can tread water.

 

[Windhover]

Why? I get wanting to say the right things, but I’d still rather you say something than nothing. I’m not looking for novel solutions, although that would be nice. Your being here is all I could really hope for.

Thanks Inanimate, good to know. Being here is all I can manage today.

 

[Inanimate]

It's not fair how life is for you Inanimate. I hope some peace comes to you soon.

Thanks. Progress is moving far too slowly, but at least it’s moving.