I've blocked my older son from calling me. I appreciate the understanding here. I need to change my will, I thought he'd be the most responsible person but I'm afraid he might not be. I think it's better to have my sons uncle instead of either of my sons directly involved. I'm saying this because
@seabird said not to let him have control over anything in my life, and my emergency contact is now my brother. I need peace of mind for that.
And no, there's a huge difference with medical problems and what he thinks or believes. I don't believe in those things. I've always done my best and used to believe in God, but his extreme ways are too much to be any help to me. Thanks
@LumberJack too. I wont obsess over it, but I might write a short note to myself about it and tear it up. Anger doesn't solve anything but yes I get angry for a bit. Lately I've been learning to let go of what anyone says about me and not be angry long about it very long. I hope everyone here feels better soon.