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How Are You Feeling Right Now?
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I resolved it earlier this week. Got a refund and got the service cancelled before any upcoming charges.
One of the personal trainers continued reaching out to me via text, encouraging me as if we were brothers on a mission. I went along to see where this was going, and eventually he asked if we could meet and train together under the premise that he’s making rounds with former clients. I asked if it was going to cost me anything, and he has left me on “Read” since last Tuesday. Lol.
I’m relieved, actually. Confirming what these c**ts were really after gave me needed closure and the satisfaction of saying, “I fucking knew it.”
One of the personal trainers continued reaching out to me via text, encouraging me as if we were brothers on a mission. I went along to see where this was going, and eventually he asked if we could meet and train together under the premise that he’s making rounds with former clients. I asked if it was going to cost me anything, and he has left me on “Read” since last Tuesday. Lol.
I’m relieved, actually. Confirming what these c**ts were really after gave me needed closure and the satisfaction of saying, “I fucking knew it.”
I've been feeling really peaceful, something that I've been longing for for at least 5 or more years. I am so grateful. I still don't know the answer to depression though, but maybe in my case, it's time. Time will heal, and getting closer to God. Not forcing it down on anyone of course, but that's what works for me 
(and thanks to SF!)
And not drowning myself on the internet....
As life does, nothing is perfect. I'm still struggling with another part of myself, it's been really hard. I can't really tell what it's about here, but I'm working on it really hard, and I have awesome people helping me.
(and thanks to SF!)And not drowning myself on the internet....
As life does, nothing is perfect. I'm still struggling with another part of myself, it's been really hard. I can't really tell what it's about here, but I'm working on it really hard, and I have awesome people helping me.
I met someone, and my brain is spinning. It was not something I planned on or was really looking for, but the connection between us is palpable and I feel very torn between continuing to get to know her versus stepping back. It's too soon, and I know the judgement I would receive from anyone outside of my friends and family for pursuing a relationship...but is that enough of a reason to not continue? I have never felt a connection this strong before, not even with my ex wife.
All that being said- I'm doing the inner work. I'm journaling and exercising and doing therapy, and the meds are really helping keep me balanced. I feel good, for the first time in years- hopeful even.
All that being said- I'm doing the inner work. I'm journaling and exercising and doing therapy, and the meds are really helping keep me balanced. I feel good, for the first time in years- hopeful even.
I kind of wish I could work. I miss the satisfaction of earning the money myself, feeling useful. I also know it's hard working anywhere. I'm trying to get the laundry done, I asked for a cleaner to come, I cancelled it months ago. I can't get this stuff my son stuck to the floor off, or all the garbage, he left clothes, stuff in my car, garbage, I'm finding broken glass parts for his bongs, tape everywhere stuck. I'm not good at keeping messes clean myself... so, he's the only one who used the stove but it's dirty, and I'd like the floors thoroughly cleaned and the bathroom. Hopefully after that I can keep it clean myself. Tomorrow I'll tackle more of it, but I'm leaving some work for them because it's not a horrible price, but I'm paying for it so I better not get to everything but the floors.
I get some of the oddest symptoms/side effects when it comes to mental health. It seems nicotine actually triggers my auditory hallucinations. However, if I quit the nicotine, my Crohn's disease worsens and I gain tons of weight because my appetite becomes out of control. So I'm staying on the nicotine for now.
You can do it and it's fine to get help @Reality.
I know I feel very much worse if there are messes and unfinished business. Τhe decision to get your home cleaned up is great, just that in itself is a big step. Always seems there are more possibilties once you're not looking at messes around the place. (h)
I know I feel very much worse if there are messes and unfinished business. Τhe decision to get your home cleaned up is great, just that in itself is a big step. Always seems there are more possibilties once you're not looking at messes around the place. (h)
I hope you get used to them. I have had crazy neigbours over the years. One neighbour thought she had the X Factor. Actually appeared on the show, but she would practise and sounded like a drowning cat... "I Loooove you sooooooooooooooo" Her boyfriend threw the telly out of the front window one New Year's and declared to the world that she was a tramp. The current neighbours have a loud caged bird which has been driving me mad for 4 years. Tweet tweet tweet tweet. I recommend loudspeakers playing white noise 24/7 and headphones on constantly playing more white noise or music. Or living at the North Pole. Good luck with it ❤️
