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How Are You Feeling Right Now?
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@Lane - What is that card game? Looks like Spades or Hearts, something like that. Either way, thanks for sharing your photos!
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unrelated to the above but more on the topic of how I'm feeling rn - My intrusive thoughts are attacking me like a swarm of tiny, but angry, hornets repeatedly dive-bombing me from all directions. Time to roll up my sleeves and see if these can be managed or corralled. Plan is to take the stupid meds I forgot to take, which I do enough for it to impact my symptoms. I'm not sure I'm rolling up my sleeves in terms of physical activity because I busted my ass cleaning yesterday, but damn I could use some time to sit down and just chill, and/or find some things that are not painful and focus on those for a few minutes. Screw it, I'm going to break out the adult coloring sheet I have in progress and my glitter pens. Haven't done that in a while... We'll see how that goes.
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unrelated to the above but more on the topic of how I'm feeling rn - My intrusive thoughts are attacking me like a swarm of tiny, but angry, hornets repeatedly dive-bombing me from all directions. Time to roll up my sleeves and see if these can be managed or corralled. Plan is to take the stupid meds I forgot to take, which I do enough for it to impact my symptoms. I'm not sure I'm rolling up my sleeves in terms of physical activity because I busted my ass cleaning yesterday, but damn I could use some time to sit down and just chill, and/or find some things that are not painful and focus on those for a few minutes. Screw it, I'm going to break out the adult coloring sheet I have in progress and my glitter pens. Haven't done that in a while... We'll see how that goes.
hope your mood improves soon
I was talking to my brother today about how I learned to start speaking to strangers and how my social anxiety got better over time. I would say one way is just to pay a random compliment to someone. Like, "Hey, I like your shirt," for instance. And he said, "That's not the culture I was brought up in." I said what do you mean? And he said that in Ukrainian culture, basically, if you pay a random compliment to someone you don't know, they're likely to think you're strange and not take it well. I was born in Ukraine also, but the difference between my brother and I is that I was mostly brought up in the U.S. I came here at 6 years old and he came at 18. So yes, we obviously have some cultural differences of opinion. Still, I think it's strange that people from anywhere would react that way to a compliment.
Manic Monday has not yet completely begun but I'm awake. Got a few hours' sleep so that's something. Woke up too early so got up and just trying to get myself into the state of a functional human being before I march into battle. Today's job is make it through the day.... somehow. Try not to think about the last meeting this evening, the bus ride home, the rest of the week, the other shit in the background - just make it to 6.30pm today and get through each checkpoint during the afternoon schedule, one at a time.
@Lane - What is that card game? Looks like Spades or Hearts, something like that. Either way, thanks for sharing your photos!
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unrelated to the above but more on the topic of how I'm feeling rn - My intrusive thoughts are attacking me like a swarm of tiny, but angry, hornets repeatedly dive-bombing me from all directions. Time to roll up my sleeves and see if these can be managed or corralled. Plan is to take the stupid meds I forgot to take, which I do enough for it to impact my symptoms. I'm not sure I'm rolling up my sleeves in terms of physical activity because I busted my ass cleaning yesterday, but damn I could use some time to sit down and just chill, and/or find some things that are not painful and focus on those for a few minutes. Screw it, I'm going to break out the adult coloring sheet I have in progress and my glitter pens. Haven't done that in a while... We'll see how that goes.
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unrelated to the above but more on the topic of how I'm feeling rn - My intrusive thoughts are attacking me like a swarm of tiny, but angry, hornets repeatedly dive-bombing me from all directions. Time to roll up my sleeves and see if these can be managed or corralled. Plan is to take the stupid meds I forgot to take, which I do enough for it to impact my symptoms. I'm not sure I'm rolling up my sleeves in terms of physical activity because I busted my ass cleaning yesterday, but damn I could use some time to sit down and just chill, and/or find some things that are not painful and focus on those for a few minutes. Screw it, I'm going to break out the adult coloring sheet I have in progress and my glitter pens. Haven't done that in a while... We'll see how that goes.
The game is 500 rummy, a fun time killer.
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It seems like I will forever stay a loser who has no job and career and a partner who cannot support me in my struggles. I don't want to stay on this planet anymore I don't want to try for anything anymore. I'm really struggling and my boyfriend even if he says "it's going to work out" doesn't help me. It's empty words. I don't know what to do anymore. He also has the audacity to say that I never share anything and I'm secretive. I know what I will have is just empty words.
