How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[Windhover]

yet I still find myself targeted by people and companies that see me as a "mark" to be bullied, harmed, and exploited for their sick satisfaction.

(h) if it helps.
This is something that's rankled me for years and makes me want to protect everyone, which is impossible.

Spoiler: reality vs reality

Recently, I met a couple of people who defy this. One started a non-profit and the other one is, in their 50's, driving a taxi and raising an autistic grandchild. It affirmed in a positive way my core outlook or whatever it is. The way the human world is right now, simply having the trait of alive makes one a target for this behaviour. I refuse to allow my view of reality to box up people into predators and prey. We aren't commoditites in little boxes.

 

[AvidFan]

Pretty fed up today. Was supposed to be some me time, tried to push myself to get out for a walk for the endorphins a couple of times and get my steps in, but it literally hasn't stopped raining for two days. Every time I go out in the rain I start getting anxiety attacks about rain getting into my house. I had to rage quit both walks because I was like a drowned rat, my coat is soaked, my feet are soaked, I just feel hemmed in and trapped and like I've failed at my challenge to keep the step count and my virtual walk thing going. I couldn't even make it to the supermarket. Trying to watch my shows and not feeling it. Don't feel like cooking or eating. Don't feel like much at all. Feels like everything is hitting me all at once. My mind is my greatest strength and my worst bloody enemy. ☹️

 

[Inastorm]

Maybe this is the source of my issues.

 

[AvidFan]

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Maybe this is the source of my issues.

Yes, I think we are all suffering from late stage capitalism.

 

[Windhover]

Yes, late stage capitalism and a deficit of ocean/shore; or {please insert your favourite natural, un-crowded place}.

 

[KM76710]

Starting to feel better physically after that shot on Thursday reductions in rashes and that sandpaper like texture and rarely itching, but still need to check in with the allergist coming up in the future, oh joys. LOL

 

[MAC0]

Just feel numb right now got woke up early by my cat just trying to keep my mind busy so it does not start thinking about bad stuff

 

[AvidFan]

Just feel numb right now got woke up early by my cat just trying to keep my mind busy so it does not start thinking about bad stuff

I remember being woken up by cat! Now I just wake up early anyway. I hope you can keep your mind busy, am doing the same after waking up too early.

 

[Angie]

Post op pain woke me about 3 hours ago. Its now 2:45 am

I'm still processing the events of last week (surgery).

I am hopeful that the cancer is gone and I can go back to some semblance of a regular life.

 

[JanisSPK]

Tired, awake and with several full days ahead. And no real choices but to keep putting one foot in front of other to get tasks done….Im ok though.

 

[JanisSPK]

Yes, late stage capitalism and a deficit of ocean/shore; or {please insert your favourite natural, un-crowded place}.

The woods and in the mountains (I’m finding them a bit cold at the moment but still quiet and embracing)

I’ll be looking up this term late stage capitalism. The term has grabbed my interest since I don’t believe we live a capitalism definition any longer. And haven’t for some time. The shift is just making its presence known mainstream and we’ve reached critical mass while having to acknowledge the new mass consciousness reality of “what is” and “what has been allowed” to occur

 

[JanisSPK]

Santa Fe sunset

 

[JanisSPK]

Trying to learn how to take decent shots of birds in the city

 

[JanisSPK]

Afternoon sun

 

[JanisSPK]

Friday full moon rise

 

[Lane]

Trying to learn how to take decent shots of birds in the city
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Really like this photo @JanisSPK. You are talented

 

[JanisSPK]

Really like this photo @JanisSPK. You are talented

Thank you so much Lane and I’m glad you liked this photo. I tried many times just to get one shot here☺️

 

[JanisSPK]

My apologies, I was trying to post the pics in a nature thread….oops🙃

 

[Something.idk]

I feel horrible and alone. I feel like i am the only one who hasn't "snapped put of it". Not okay and im distancing myself from the ones i love since all i do is make them worry.

 

[Lane]

I feel horrible and alone. I feel like i am the only one who hasn't "snapped put of it". Not okay and im distancing myself from the ones i love since all i do is make them worry.

You have us here @Something.idk. People go at their own pace. But, when youre not feeling well, it's easy to distance yourself, but this is when we need support the most.