How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[PrincessPure]

Oh I’m down down down I’m blue

 

[AvidFan]

Ok, but head is feeling a bit tired.

 

[Windhover]

Hungry. I have to make some breakfast. And coffee. Pensive but grateful for last night's run in the magic mist of the PNW

 

[MAC0]

feeling strange yesterday was a day of rest did not do much but my body ended the day aching be it my stomach and bones muscles the lot just kind of knocked me down a ton

 

[silver-watercolors]

I keep swinging between "life feels meaningless and I want to give up" and "I'm slightly less depressed now so I feel like I should actually try to get better, but I feel too exhausted to actually do anything meaningful". It's mentally/emotionally exhausting. I feel too depressed/exhausted to change my life but way too afraid to attempt suicide, so I feel stuck, and nothing I do to try to rest feels restful.

 

[Inastorm]

Like I should be going to bed, but Im enjoying the music too much.

 

[TragicReality]

I'm overthinking everything. Sometimes I wish I could be in the hospital again for a few nights, just so I have meals prepared and a nurse to talk to. My pain is much better at home though, and the control of a psych hospital is harsh itself.

 

[Inastorm]

I'm overthinking everything. Sometimes I wish I could be in the hospital again for a few nights, just so I have meals prepared and a nurse to talk to. My pain is much better at home though, and the control of a psych hospital is harsh itself.

Sorry to hear things are tough for you right now, hope things improve.

 

[AvidFan]

Like I should be going to bed, but Im enjoying the music too much.

Glad you are enjoying some music!

 

[PrincessPure]

Officially Monday since it’s past midnight, but still I wanna say I really had no idea how freaking gloomy weekends/Sundays could be before coming to Europe…. The gloomy Sunday song my professor talked about only makes so much sense now.

 

[ClassicsFan]

Tired.

 

[LumberJack]

If all else fails, there’s always the can of gas and book of matches in my trunk. Hell, things don’t even need to fail; if I get bored theres always the can of gas and book of matches in my trunk.

I’m going to my car for a minute. I just have to do a, uh, a thing.

I’m disappointed. I know you have more imagination than that. I self censored my earlier post because I was going to make a joke about criminal activity that I decided to not joke about.

But I was thinking a little blackmail can be a good form of revenge or retaliation.

 

[LumberJack]

Officially Monday since it’s past midnight, but still I wanna say I really had no idea how freaking gloomy weekends/Sundays could be before coming to Europe…. The gloomy Sunday song my professor talked about only makes so much sense now.

I know that song. I don’t exactly know what it’s about. It could mean many things - maybe working with one’s own depression, maybe the shared trauma of marginalized groups struggling to win civil rights, maybe straight up universal human grief. It’s different every time I listen to it.

 

[LumberJack]

I keep swinging between "life feels meaningless and I want to give up" and "I'm slightly less depressed now so I feel like I should actually try to get better, but I feel too exhausted to actually do anything meaningful". It's mentally/emotionally exhausting. I feel too depressed/exhausted to change my life but way too afraid to attempt suicide, so I feel stuck, and nothing I do to try to rest feels restful.

I get that. Only too well. I know the textbook answers of what to do. However, depression is not rational. If it were, it would not be a disorder! So trying to motivate myself with logic and evidence when I feel like there’s so much pain that it would be a relief if my skull would just explode from the pressure - this tends to be much harder than the textbook answers ever account for.

 

[Windhover]

Like I need to talk to someone who sees the world from the same basic perspective as I do, nothing unusual. Also I miss my brother. But I'm glad it's raining, the sound helps me sleep.

 

[myucore]

I'm new here. I'm coming from SaSu. I want and need to recover. I'm trying my best to fight my anxiety and getting over my trigger. And I feel like I need some sort of people or community or support whenever I started getting consumed again by anxiety and bad thoughts. Being scared is exhausting, but I try to walk out of home and do some chores at the moment.

 

[Congratsbaby]

I'm new here. I'm coming from SaSu. I want and need to recover. I'm trying my best to fight my anxiety and getting over my trigger. And I feel like I need some sort of people or community or support whenever I started getting consumed again by anxiety and bad thoughts. Being scared is exhausting, but I try to walk out of home and do some chores at the moment.

I am glad you came here. Hope you find the support you're looking for.

 

[Lane]

I'm new here. I'm coming from SaSu. I want and need to recover. I'm trying my best to fight my anxiety and getting over my trigger. And I feel like I need some sort of people or community or support whenever I started getting consumed again by anxiety and bad thoughts. Being scared is exhausting, but I try to walk out of home and do some chores at the moment.

Welcome to SF. While I'm sorry to hear that you suffer anxiety and bad thoughts, I'm glad that you joined us. I hope that by posting and reading you can start to overcome some of your fears and meet some truly awesome members here.

 

[Lane]

Disappointed in the non-actions of my fiance. I have to come to grips that he will never get it. Tired of making excuses, eg. Its the distance, he has ADHD. I just think some people are just so self absorbed that they cant give 100 percent to their partner. Or at least some percentage. I feel like a whiny child saying that.

 

[Harrow]

I really just need to die.