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How Are You Feeling Right Now?
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I’m longing for love, a place to live where I can find peace, and answers, but it seems I will never find what I am seeking in life. I know my life is meaningless, so I already know the answer to that. Finding love and a place where I truly belong is still what I desire. Why is this feeling so strong? I know neither of these will ever happen to me.
Feeling terrible 
Im glad that you got a good cry @Inanimate, but sorry for the circumstances surrounding your sorrow. I get how the past can haunt a person. I hope in time it gets easier for you. This is something that I try to work on and deal with, as those thoughts come creeping in.
Mostly trying to get thru this weekend as im by myself. Thats a challenge for me sometimes bcz my children are grown and busy with their own lives and I dont have many friends anymore. Honestly, I was thinking of going to a non denominational church for the uplifting song and words today. Nervous about going alone.
Frustrated with my weight loss journey. After one month of Zepbound - the weight loss drug - and maintaining a food journal showing I have dropped to 1500 cal/day and exercising 5 days/week I have plateaued in my weight. Very discouraging. I did this before same strategy and lost 40 pounds but gained it back. Maybe a little more time.
Plateau phases are very common in the weight loss effort. They can happen for various reasons, but I think that if we use calorie restriction alone, then the body adapts by lowering how many calories it burns at rest. I think we’re supposed to increase strength training to keep the resting metabolic rate from dropping, but I am trying to get back to the plateau I was on before I started gaining again.
I’m feeling better from having slept much better over the past 2 nights, but now I have enough brain capacity to very articulately justify my rage. I don’t want to live like this. Anger has been a problem as long as I’ve been alive.
I know that I am supposed to let things go, forgive, etc. Yet, it is my experience to date that simply having the words on board and a sincere desire to do so, and even working through certain psychological exercises, I’m only better as long as I am distracted; the exercises might as well be Sudoku puzzles for all the good they do. As soon as I have a few spare brain cycles, the anger is back.
I know that I am supposed to let things go, forgive, etc. Yet, it is my experience to date that simply having the words on board and a sincere desire to do so, and even working through certain psychological exercises, I’m only better as long as I am distracted; the exercises might as well be Sudoku puzzles for all the good they do. As soon as I have a few spare brain cycles, the anger is back.
Kind of strange, but not in a bad way. I was reading or rather listening to a book while doing chores this morning, and there was a climactic scene in which someone powerful caught up to a very bad guy, and well, put them in hospital. I realised the potential for stirring up rage when the situation calls for a righteous response. It's not something I'm going to indulge in, as it's stupidly toxic. In a contemplative way, as I listened to the story I was able to see how the immature, negative parts of my ex partner and myself took center stage and destroyed any relationsip health. There could be anger aimed at both parties, one for aggresive abuse and the other for being overly humble. It came very close to him taking advantage of what little energy I had left, as well as almost getting control over my finances. Maybe I dodged a bullet.
