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unless you took the last slice of 4-layer chocolate cake, your guess is as good as mine. 
PS - now I want cake. Dang.
PS - now I want cake. Dang.
Great. Now I want cake too. :pI still have no idea why encountering me in the kitchen caused them to wordlessly but loudly stomp away. I don't think I'll ever understand. Apparently without realising it I was being icky, or aggressive, or something else offensive, I dunno. : (
I feel like the medication I’m taking may be helping to an extent. I’m not as picky anymore, but now I feel very depressed. I was so focused on the ocd i forgot that the reason why I got here was because of depression. I have the time to actually put in effort and energy in the things that matter that aren’t cleaning, yet I don’t have the energy or motivation to. I wish I could die whenever I think of doing anything. I forgot that the reason why I became suicidal at the start of college wasn’t because of ocd but because of academics and how much it overwhelmed me. ocd was such a distraction and took over my life that it made me forget why I was depressed and suicidal in the first place. I feel like I don’t find joy in anything
Great. Now I want cake too. :pI still have no idea why encountering me in the kitchen caused them to wordlessly but loudly stomp away. I don't think I'll ever understand. Apparently without realising it I was being icky, or aggressive, or something else offensive, I dunno. : (
I’m really sleepy because I procrastinated bedtime last night when I knew I needed to be up early. I have a lot to do today (mostly anxiety provoking job hunt efforts) because I pushed everything off yesterday. So I’m tired but stressed. I also relapsed on avoiding the news. One fb post and I am off on a wild goose chase looking up statistics on wealth distribution since the 1970s. Because I am insane.
If they are not talking to you about it, then it’s not your fault. They are being childish and passive aggressive. It’s definitely a “them” problem, but since you live together it affects you, so that sucks.
My leg -not the hip- is sore today. Probably stemming from the hip problem. It was so crazy sore yesterday that I could barely walk. I called my friend massage therapist and got a leg massage. Since i met her 10 years ago I have never asked for a massage but I was a mess. I don't know how others like @1964dodge and I believe @full deal with the pain.
But down to a low level of pain today. I will go to tai chi tonight but since it's an active form of tai chi (almost karate) I will try to avoid things that will strain the leg.
Sorry to complain but I never started a diary on SF and this doesn't feel like a major or petty complaint. Just old age.
But down to a low level of pain today. I will go to tai chi tonight but since it's an active form of tai chi (almost karate) I will try to avoid things that will strain the leg.
Sorry to complain but I never started a diary on SF and this doesn't feel like a major or petty complaint. Just old age.
I’m feeling better today. I don’t know why, but right now I suspect that I’m too sleep deprived to worry about anything that is not right in front of me (as in, the bumper of the car in front of mine). Nothing is really better or worse. I just have a smaller “plate” to put things on, so less is on my plate.