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How Are You Feeling Right Now?
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I'm so sick of them constantly asking me if I'm okay. This time it was because I was "too quiet". Am I supposed to entertain you or what? I don't understand. And I get angry about it; I tell them to stop, and it's like we don't speak the same language or they still have this compulsion to keep doing it. It's like, are YOU fucking okay? Fuck.
Yes they do. I told them I will have no other choice cause it would put me in complete debt and I would lose more than now. I don't want to live already. I also dont want anybody hurting like me. I just lose control of myself but now I cant call the crisis line who knows what will happen tonight. I ain't got nobody to talk to now
I appreciate that but I don't want to be a burden on Noone. I feel its have to do this alone. I cant put on you guys. Everyone here has enough going on and I feel its ain't helping them or you by telling how im messed up and my life totaled. Everyone here deserves better. I don't want to waste anybodys time. I don't feel im going to get better. Thank you for being you tho. I know you mean well and want the best for you.
I can't take this shit anymore! 
I think it's possible to block individual numbers from your phone.
As for hospital, I cannot advise you on what to do, but I voluntarily decided to seek inpatient care for a severe episode in 2024. I consider this decision to be, by far, the most regrettable mistake of my adult life. If you want to know why, read the content in the spoiler, but I'm going to put in spoiler tags because I have been on and on about this since I got out.
As for hospital, I cannot advise you on what to do, but I voluntarily decided to seek inpatient care for a severe episode in 2024. I consider this decision to be, by far, the most regrettable mistake of my adult life. If you want to know why, read the content in the spoiler, but I'm going to put in spoiler tags because I have been on and on about this since I got out.
I walked in voluntarily, with the understanding that I could leave voluntarily. I even filled out paperwork saying they could not be blamed for anything that happens afterward if I discharged myself. When I tried to do this, I was put on a 72-hr hold, but I never got anything that I would call treatment. Even my basic needs for human dignity, and not to have to sleep in a room contaminated with the fecal matter of the prior occupant (I literally had to ask for 2 days before I saw anyone with disinfectant on the entire unit). The pt handbook stated that the nurses were there to help if we needed it, but they wouldn't even look up from their paperwork when I asked. Because of this and other intentionally harmful actions by the nursing staff, I walked out more traumatized than I walked in, and I'm still trying to work through that over 2 years later.
I will never, ever, even consider asking for help again if I have to go behind a door that I cannot walk out of whenever I choose.
I will never, ever, even consider asking for help again if I have to go behind a door that I cannot walk out of whenever I choose.
Surviving. I rescheduled my week and cancelled my physio appointment later in the week, so as to ensure I only have 1 commute. A relief but also the quietness in the diary is unsettling. Hopefully I can look at the work situation if/when I can sort my health out as I can't do anything about bigger issues when I can barely walk to the shops and back. Had a major flare up today. I will try to use the clear Thursday for medical appointment if I can get one finally at this new doctors place. See what happens.
