How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[may71]

Or having a catch or bike ride

If you can take care of your health and get your living situation worked out, I bet you can be back playing catch and riding bikes this Summer.

I wonder if it would help if you could just visualize playing catch with your kids, or some happy time with them. That might help get you through.

 

[Lostman85]

If you can take care of your health and get your living situation worked out, I bet you can be back playing catch and riding bikes this Summer.

I wonder if it would help if you could just visualize playing catch with your kids, or some happy time with them. That might help get you through.

It hurts more cause I miss my kids seeing everyday now I look at pictures. Im a horrible dad

 

[may71]

Im a horrible dad

No, you're a really good dad who is going through some difficult struggles.

You really care about your kids, and that's the main ingredient. You just have to get to a more stable place and then you can go back to being a great dad.

 

[Aurelia]

 

[Lostman85]

No, you're a really good dad who is going through some difficult struggles.

You really care about your kids, and that's the main ingredient. You just have to get to a more stable place and then you can go back to being a great dad.

Im not going to argue about me caring bout my kids cause they are everything to me. I try not to talk bout them cause of what I've been doing but yes I love and care for my kids more than anything.

 

[Inanimate]

My street should be renamed “Wit’s End” because that’s practically where I live.

 

[Lane]

@may71 Thank you. Unfortunately in December, just before Christmas, I had to say goodbye to my first and only cat ever who I adopted as a four month old kitten. He was my whole entire life for 14 years, he was my baby, and it’s really left a huge hole in my heart and my soul. I miss him so much. I’ve never experience grief before. What a bitch.

Welcome back, however im sorry for the circumstances that brought you here. Also, sorry for the loss of your precious fur baby.

 

[Lane]

Hurting

Im sorry that life is a burden right now @SillyOldBear. We care about you here.

 

[Lane]

Feeling really down in hurt. She won't leave me alone but she will now. I just dont see why im here. I hate myself

She sounds abusive and toxic. I know things are very difficult, but circumstances do change. Please dont give up @Lostman85 .

 

[Lane]

Ambivalent. Went to doctors for a first time visit. Figured I have this health insurance might as well use it. I told her I gained 15 lbs in the past year, which brings me to 140. She asked if I was interested in the weight loss drug ozempic. Im scared of the long term effects and what happens if you stop taking it. Does the weight come back.

 

[cev77]

Everything will work what ever you are going through. Just dont give we want to see you succeed in life.

Thanks

 

[AvidFan]

Scared. I have to commute and do 3 long meetings today, the sitting will not be good for my inflamed areas. And then tomorrow I have no choice but to initiate medical intervention. Have had multiple bad experiences and misdiagnoses and been gaslit by doctors in the past, so I am not confident this is going fix anything. Everything I've tried so far has failed or made things worse, but I have to start this process somehow, even if it means multiple appointments to try to get to the right specialist or at least rule out scarier possibilities. I also fear the exact same response as I got when I asked for help 2 weeks ago - a door (in the form of an automated text) being shut in my face.

 

[cymbele]

Ambivalent. Went to doctors for a first time visit. Figured I have this health insurance might as well use it. I told her I gained 15 lbs in the past year, which brings me to 140. She asked if I was interested in the weight loss drug ozempic. Im scared of the long term effects and what happens if you stop taking it. Does the weight come back.

Yes the weight does come back if you're not careful. however, i was able to lose 40 pounds on it. I gained it back during a time when the insurance company refused to cover it but I got the insurance to cover Zepbound and that's working. It's still hard.

 

[SillyOldBear]

Scared. I have to commute and do 3 long meetings today, the sitting will not be good for my inflamed areas. And then tomorrow I have no choice but to initiate medical intervention. Have had multiple bad experiences and misdiagnoses and been gaslit by doctors in the past, so I am not confident this is going fix anything. Everything I've tried so far has failed or made things worse, but I have to start this process somehow, even if it means multiple appointments to try to get to the right specialist or at least rule out scarier possibilities. I also fear the exact same response as I got when I asked for help 2 weeks ago - a door (in the form of an automated text) being shut in my face.

I feel for you. I have the same problem with doctors. No resolution to issues at all. I hope you have better luck.

 

[cymbele]

Scared. I have to commute and do 3 long meetings today, the sitting will not be good for my inflamed areas. And then tomorrow I have no choice but to initiate medical intervention. Have had multiple bad experiences and misdiagnoses and been gaslit by doctors in the past, so I am not confident this is going fix anything. Everything I've tried so far has failed or made things worse, but I have to start this process somehow, even if it means multiple appointments to try to get to the right specialist or at least rule out scarier possibilities. I also fear the exact same response as I got when I asked for help 2 weeks ago - a door (in the form of an automated text) being shut in my face.

I went through what you went through. I'm still going through it. However, recently i went to a chiropractor and he found I was locked in my bones in a position that put pressure on my hip. After that "adjustment" I still hurt but at a reduced pain and somedays I am pain free. just a thought.

 

[Lostman85]

Im having such hard time. Tried to work today and had to leave. I cant do nothing right nomore. Im such a loner. I hate myself so much I cant function. I have desire to live anymore. I got nothing and nobody. I lost myself and nobody needs nomore. Im worthless. I wish I dont wake up. It feels like bad dream im living or a horror movie. Im dieing inside. Why do I keep trying im not getting nowhere. Nobody would even notice if im gone. My last try is going to see this therapist if this doesn't go well im done that's it. There will be nothing left to try. I really wish things were different but this is my life and I cant live like this. Already feeling to alone. I tried everyone I really did but im good enough and im sry. I apologize for that. I really didn't mean to hurt Noone but I swear I won't nomore. Im sry

 

[AvidFan]

Im having such hard time. Tried to work today and had to leave. I cant do nothing right nomore. Im such a loner. I hate myself so much I cant function. I have desire to live anymore. I got nothing and nobody. I lost myself and nobody needs nomore. Im worthless. I wish I dont wake up. It feels like bad dream im living or a horror movie. Im dieing inside. Why do I keep trying im not getting nowhere. Nobody would even notice if im gone. My last try is going to see this therapist if this doesn't go well im done that's it. There will be nothing left to try. I really wish things were different but this is my life and I cant live like this. Already feeling to alone. I tried everyone I really did but im good enough and im sry. I apologize for that. I really didn't mean to hurt Noone but I swear I won't nomore. Im sry

Sorry you are feeling this way. You're not worthless - but I know how it is to feel that way and sorry that's how you're feeling now. You keep tryig because there is a part of you that doesn't believe that voice that says you're worthless. I hope the dream gets better. ❤️😞