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How Are You Feeling Right Now?
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Confused mainly. I had literally no sleep last night, I remember every rageful breath into my pillows and every twist and turn. So I rage quit my bed at 6am, then worked all day, and am still going and feeling the most functional I have in ages. Maybe sleep is bad for me or something, maybe I have alien DNA.
With the adversities you've been sharing with us recently, I risk offering this guess: Your mind is on high-alert/short-term survival-readiness/problem-solving multiprogram mode, and with it, a drive to postpone sleep and draw out worktime. Evolution did not update our brains with a specified protocol for a 20th/21st-century financial/housing situation, so our brains approximate the danger to solutions that, for our ancestors, helped them turnaround in answer to a plains fire, a rival tribe, a lion pride attack, or rising floodwaters.
I'm wishing you the might to get the most out of this mindset, clinch a win from your sea of troubles, then get well-earned triple-quality sleep every night for a month.
I'm wishing you the might to get the most out of this mindset, clinch a win from your sea of troubles, then get well-earned triple-quality sleep every night for a month.
I’m taking a friend to her chemo appointment tomorrow. I will probably let her know that she is one of the negative people in my life. But she is doing chemo for a second time and I would support her in spite of how I feel. But I wish I didn’t have to go as I have reservations about her ability to keep her negativity in check.
You know, I was doing fine, with my normal level of bad and all. Being able to go to class, taking notes and stuff, even with colored pens and markers! That's me being fancy when I don't feel so bad.
It all went down the drain the moment this... psychologist? (I don't know if she is) came to the classroom to give us emotional support and advice.
This is the second time she has come already, and after she leaves, I feel BAAAAAD. I could kill myself on the spot.
She doesn't say anything bad; it is all positive stuff, like manage your emotions and such.
But I feel BAD during these sessions. I think it's because they are meant for people in a better mental space than me.
She reminds me of all my bad feelings and thoughts. She doesn't mention them or even talk to me; she talks in a general way for everybody in the classroom, but it hurts...
I think she is a trigger for all my bad emotions.
She makes us talk or think about our feelings and then tells us to confront them. Maybe for someone with less strong emotions and fewer bad thoughts and feelings in general, the experience doesn't mean any trouble. It is healthy for them. But for me, it's just invoking all the demons from the deepest pits of hell and leaving me alone without even a leash to keep them under control.
Dang, I don't want her to come back.
I also don't want to be mean or anything, because I know that not participating in the activities she brings and putting on a bad face could make her feel bad.
Anyways... I feel baaaaaaaad
It all went down the drain the moment this... psychologist? (I don't know if she is) came to the classroom to give us emotional support and advice.
This is the second time she has come already, and after she leaves, I feel BAAAAAD. I could kill myself on the spot.
She doesn't say anything bad; it is all positive stuff, like manage your emotions and such.
But I feel BAD during these sessions. I think it's because they are meant for people in a better mental space than me.
She reminds me of all my bad feelings and thoughts. She doesn't mention them or even talk to me; she talks in a general way for everybody in the classroom, but it hurts...
I think she is a trigger for all my bad emotions.
She makes us talk or think about our feelings and then tells us to confront them. Maybe for someone with less strong emotions and fewer bad thoughts and feelings in general, the experience doesn't mean any trouble. It is healthy for them. But for me, it's just invoking all the demons from the deepest pits of hell and leaving me alone without even a leash to keep them under control.
Dang, I don't want her to come back.
I also don't want to be mean or anything, because I know that not participating in the activities she brings and putting on a bad face could make her feel bad.
Anyways... I feel baaaaaaaad
I’m feeling low tonight. I took my friend to chemo and while she apologized for being negative towards my thoughts and feelings she managed to create confusion and anxiety about a choice I had made. Got home too late to get some information about the issue but doubting myself and now I will go to bed worrying. Got to trust that it will be resolved tomorrow somehow. Thanks for being there SF
Ok just now. I checked my energy account and it said I was paying too much, so has reduced my direct debit by £20. I was thinking of doing this anyway as had done the maths myself, but this made it easy. Will also get a refund from this month. I have made sure I am always on the lowest fix at my provider, and the current fix I bagged a while ago is now super cheap (£350 a year cheaper) than anything else and is fixed until mid 2028. So while mortgage rates going up is going to cripple me (5 year fix ends end of next year) at least I don't have to worry about a single "energy bills will go up 5000%" headline crap.
I'm just feeling scared. I know people would probably call it paranoia, but I feel like the fears are possibilities. I've never been like this before. My life crashed recently, and now I am left with nothing. I know it's not good to live in fear, but I'm having trouble stopping it.
Otherwise, very depressed and sad. I am very unhappy.
Otherwise, very depressed and sad. I am very unhappy.