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How old were you when you first attempted suicide?
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I was 13 or 14, hard to remember. I knew my father had a shotgun in his closet, and I was really down, so when they were out to an AA meeting I pulled it out, ever so slowly, stroked it, to feel the cold metal slide down, kneeled down on the carpet, aimed it right in my mouth and when I tried to pull the trigger, it was not cocked yet, and I was unsure how to do it, so I pulled the whole thing away from me, looked for the way to cock it, pulled a large metal part back, seemed to click, I knew it was ready..... aimed back in my mouth on an angel, and pulled the trigger, nothing happened. it wasn't loaded...cried for an hour and layed down to rest. I am glad it didn't have bullets.... Glad I am here. I am having some more positive days in my adult life, and I know someone will always be worse off than myself, but I swear some days are so bad I could do it again, and the right way. But I will always come here first, on this forum, or my local Emerg. thank you for listening.
I was eight, although it was a laughable attempt in hindsight. Triggered by having nowhere safe to be; abused at school, tortured at home. Picked up when someone called cops because I was about to when I was 17.
Life has improved. I'm 25. Still don't really want to be alive but I'm not suicidal, it's more boredom that I can't function in the real world so I sit at home without a thing to do, just sick of it.
Life has improved. I'm 25. Still don't really want to be alive but I'm not suicidal, it's more boredom that I can't function in the real world so I sit at home without a thing to do, just sick of it.
Oh Dear Sir. may I please ask WHY you feel that way? :heart-borken: You are blessed to be born and grow into a human being as awesome and wonderful as a MAN. I know men aren't gods, even if gods did exist. But you Men are definitely SUPERIOR beings. Look how brave you Men are? I don't see women in frontline combat. I don't think that any woman who trained and tried has actually became a Navy Seal. Most women don't even protect their own babies from repulsive child abusers! So many babies and children have suffered and died right in front of their momma's because she was too afraid for her life! Look how STRONG you Men are? So strong that even feminists and female athletes agree that all sports should be segregated for the woman's safety and even her life. It is also a feminist LIE that women have a higher pain tolerance than Men! If we did then why are women such whiny crybabies when they are uncomfortable but not nessicarily in pain? Why aren't us super strong ladies in frontline combat risking TORTURE and death like you Men are? "Girl power' is a repulsive myth! If it wasn't for you Men would we be able to enjoy things like science, all forms, medicine, shelter, machines, self defense weapons, martial arts, tools to fix things, there are so MANY more things that would not exist today if Men which is what you are Dear Sir never existed. Your brains are 8% bigger than women's brains, which logically explains why you Men are far more intelligent, and wise. How many women in real life are college or university science or advanced mathematics professors? Not nearly as much as Men I can assure you. You shouldn't feel dirty hun, Men's bodies have and will ALWAYS be cleaner than a woman's body. Please dear Sir you should be proud you are Man. Just that alone makes you SUPERIOR! Trust me I am a woman and I HATE it! I always feel filthy after showering, I am a coward! No matter how much time I spend studying or trying to learn anything in college I ALWAYS get bad grades! But the Men in my family barely or never study, they just listen to their professors and get 4.0! Please sweetie trust me being a woman sucks! I know 100+% because I am one! Please be kind to yourself NEVER get a sex change! You will HATE yourself for it! Giving up all that power JUST to be a woman?!:jaw:
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