My neighbor is grieving about the lost of her mother and brother and was trying to reach out to me. I'm sorry, but I feel very helpless when it comes to bereavement. It only made me think how my death would affect my family and friends. I have never been to a funeral and grieved for someone. Suicide is a very sensitive topic and many people can't deal with my suicidal tendencies because they have so many problems of their's . I feel guilty that that's all I think of...my death and not be there for others. Sorry, but my memory blocks have protected me from painful past but I would never forget how close to death I was. I feel less valid to even think depressed, when I have so much going on for me, comparing to others. I minimize myself because others may have more issues than me and I feel guilty that I can't relate to their issues. I've always treated death openly because that's what I want too. So I don't know why I have to keep dealing with this guilt. My death will only affect others but not me. I would be put out of my misery and others just have to understand that.