How to empathize

[mpang123]

My neighbor is grieving about the lost of her mother and brother and was trying to reach out to me. I'm sorry, but I feel very helpless when it comes to bereavement. It only made me think how my death would affect my family and friends. I have never been to a funeral and grieved for someone. Suicide is a very sensitive topic and many people can't deal with my suicidal tendencies because they have so many problems of their's . I feel guilty that that's all I think of...my death and not be there for others. Sorry, but my memory blocks have protected me from painful past but I would never forget how close to death I was. I feel less valid to even think depressed, when I have so much going on for me, comparing to others. I minimize myself because others may have more issues than me and I feel guilty that I can't relate to their issues. I've always treated death openly because that's what I want too. So I don't know why I have to keep dealing with this guilt. My death will only affect others but not me. I would be put out of my misery and others just have to understand that.

 

[mpang123]

I'm the only in this complex that has a suicide issue. They have so many problems that maybe keeps them busy from thinking like me. That's probably my problem. I have nothing to complain about, right? My memory blocks out a lot of things that have upset me in the past. Maybe that's a blessing, but it's making feel like I'm losing my mind, literally. My neighbor sharing her grief has triggered me and made me think how much I can't relate to her. She has so many issues bothering her and I can't say anything empathetically to her. I feel so helpless when it comes to grieving. I take it very well, so far. Like I said, I'm obsessed with death, especially mine. It seems I don't care about anyone else and that it's such a selfish act. Well, that makes the more reason that I should die since I'm so useless. I'm so sad that I think of nothing but me. I really wish I could just give up. The pain and guilt is so overwhelming and I'm all alone. I asked for it anyway, I chase I my friends away and feel like shit.

 

[greenieguy]

Just try and be there for her you cant control how you feel about death just be caring towards your friend.