I am a 19 yo, girl and a virgin. I have weird dreams all the time, that's why when i wake up i usually make a effort to not remember my dreams because they make me feel bad, but sometimes they are too shocking to me so i wake up thinking only about that, that was the case today.
See sometimes i have sex dreams, but they are never a pleasant thing to me, i consider myself asexual since i'm not interested on experience sex (i don't even enjoy kisses with people i feel attracted to)
Whatever these dreams make me feel super off, i oversleept today and i had an incestous one with a close family member wich i appreciate as an important person in my life but not that way, and it's not the first time it happens wich makes me worry a lot about my sanity, the worst thing is that the "me" of those dreams is enjoying it, making the real me very ashamed and disgusted, it already happened with another family member of the opposite sex (at first i thought i was bisexual so i'm not really surprised about gender) but ughhhhhh i literally wake up today with a taste in my mouth i had to clean with my courtain why does this keep happening to me? Does this mean anything?? I first searched for "weird sex dreams" on google but i didn't find anything like this... I had a dream of being raped by a stranger old man once and that feelt awful but i prefer that 1000 times than this. I'm a very suicidal person so anything that makes me feel like i don't worth enough makes a perfect excuse to go back to my destructive behaviour and that's what these dreams make me feel about me. I thought that maybe the fact that i spend the most time in my house with them and not really going outside (i work from home and i didn't hang out with my friends in a long time) could be the cause of this? Or i'm really just a pervert that needs to stop going to sleep at 5am and start taking my meds again. (Sorry if i mispelled something, i'm still learning english)
Any advice?
See sometimes i have sex dreams, but they are never a pleasant thing to me, i consider myself asexual since i'm not interested on experience sex (i don't even enjoy kisses with people i feel attracted to)
Whatever these dreams make me feel super off, i oversleept today and i had an incestous one with a close family member wich i appreciate as an important person in my life but not that way, and it's not the first time it happens wich makes me worry a lot about my sanity, the worst thing is that the "me" of those dreams is enjoying it, making the real me very ashamed and disgusted, it already happened with another family member of the opposite sex (at first i thought i was bisexual so i'm not really surprised about gender) but ughhhhhh i literally wake up today with a taste in my mouth i had to clean with my courtain why does this keep happening to me? Does this mean anything?? I first searched for "weird sex dreams" on google but i didn't find anything like this... I had a dream of being raped by a stranger old man once and that feelt awful but i prefer that 1000 times than this. I'm a very suicidal person so anything that makes me feel like i don't worth enough makes a perfect excuse to go back to my destructive behaviour and that's what these dreams make me feel about me. I thought that maybe the fact that i spend the most time in my house with them and not really going outside (i work from home and i didn't hang out with my friends in a long time) could be the cause of this? Or i'm really just a pervert that needs to stop going to sleep at 5am and start taking my meds again. (Sorry if i mispelled something, i'm still learning english)
Any advice?