I am ready to go. If there is a God or some higher power, please end my suffering and pain

[iloverachel]

If there is a God, or higher power out there, please let me die peacefully in my sleep. Enough is enough. I want to go now. I don't want to carry on any longer in this life sentence

 

[Jezah81]

Life is bad and we won't be around forever. We were non existent for longer than what we will be around for. After we die we'll go that eternal bliss of not existing again . That's my only solace now , until.i have the courage to end it quicker

 

[iloverachel]

Life is bad and we won't be around forever. We were non existent for longer than what we will be around for. After we die we'll go that eternal bliss of not existing again . That's my only solace now , until.i have the courage to end it quicker

Its just way too long. Knowing i will die in say, 50 years, does not bring me much peace of mind.

 

[Daryl72]

If there is a God, or higher power out there, please let me die peacefully in my sleep. Enough is enough. I want to go now. I don't want to carry on any longer in this life sentence

Right there with you friend. Enough suffering, when there is no more hope I just want some mercy and be out out of my misery.

 

[Aurelia]

What's so bad about it? You should be grateful. There's plenty more to come.

 

[iloverachel]

What's so bad about it? You should be grateful. There's plenty more to come.

There is a some things about life I feel grateful about, but theres definitely way more things that make me miserable and cause suffering

The pain and suffering outweight the joy and happiness (which barely exist)

 

[CrossedSeas]

For you @iloverachel

 

[iloverachel]

For you @iloverachel

thnk you

 

[TragicReality]

I felt this way long ago already. Never thought I'd live to see 30. I'm 55 and tired, and I can't say the journey has been pleasant very often. But each day is different, even if only by the slightest thing. I'm not trying to convince you it gets better, but different for sure. A few years ago I couldn't think of anything but the loss of a relationship. Now I'm grateful and can see just how I was used by a narcissist. I couldn't imagine being happy back then without a relationship. I'm not perfectly happy by a long shot, but I don't desire what I used to. I'm glad to have time alone, to play some music even if I'm not great at it. I hope there's something you can find to help you cope a bit with every day that comes. Hugs.

 

[Road to Nowhere]

I hope you're pain and suffering will ease soon.

 

[Windhover]

 

[1Lefty]

Hi ILR

I'm sorry you're feeling that way,
I hope you'll be able to find hope
I'm glad you're here



peace

 

[Pebble mouse]

Did the testosterone treatment not work at all, @iloverachel?

I hope you can pull yourself out of your despair.

 

[iloverachel]

Did the testosterone treatment not work at all, @iloverachel?

I hope you can pull yourself out of your despair.

Thank you for checking up on me

No it has not worked one bit. It has been 8 weeks so far. I will have to get a blood test soon, and see if i could increase the dosage or find out why its not working effectively. I am honestly not so hopeful its gonna work for me

I hope you have been doing better with your depression, psychotic episodes etc

 

[ib4uib]

If quantum theory is right, then around and around you'll go.
And not breaking the cycle in one of these lives, could mean potentially that you could live like this indefinitely.

Not that I'm fear mongering, but thinking it's all over the moment you die, could be kind of wishful thinking.

 

[Deadsoon]

🫂

 

[iloverachel]

There is no escaping this HELL

 

[Bergerac]

There is no escaping this HELL

Feeling much the same. Trying to distract, with buying gifts, for friends. x

 

[Plumeria]

Yeah, I am also sick of this cyclical life, and I don't even have a lot of good times. Nowadays, it's all shit. I hate life and myself.

 

[Jezah81]

There is no escaping this HELL

Definitely not. Just looking forward to some distractions.