Hello everyone ^^
wel, I am a 16 years old male person, you may say, heh, a teenager, whats the problems can teenager have, may God give him a swat, so he stand up and stoped crying. I'll say, remember yourself when you was 16. AHEM.
soo whats bothering me
isolation. 16 yrs, it is the period when you have a freedom, but still have a care, so it is the peak of your social activity, and fun with people of your age, when you live, earn good memories, and gain experience. I would say fuck it all out of my envy on this world, anger, and (moslty) devastating dissapointment
I have no opportunity, and no strength to get opportunity to live this fascinainting period. I have no friends to casually talk to anybody, hang out with someone, and loosing strength to keep searching. I have a succes of search. But its painfull to keep up. So i often loose it. Sometimes people and circusmanstes lead to loose. i live in ukraine, there is a goddamn war that prevents me from meeting classmates at school, and keeps me beign isolated. and, i cant have normal learning, due to war, it is harder, and i have no strength to learn normally. yay. Also, a factor of a goddamn war. I fucking bear it for a 5 years. From my very little 11 years age. How I managed to deserve it.
You say: use your loneliness to learn skills, and do what you like!
i answer. In cause of loneliness, there is nothing what can cheer me a lot, and there is no such a desire or strength to do what i like. The only reason of living is nothing but fantasies and dreams. ALL OF THIS things WAS easier earlier. I TRULY WANT to re-born earlier, at the start of 2000-s, 90-s, 80-s, 70-s also good.
i did selfharm, a few times, seeing it as an only opportunity to copy. It always was an only opportunity to copy when I did it. I feel my life is a waste. There is too much unluck
of course, there is would be adult life, and everything is ahead. awww, go to hell. this thought stopped to serve as an optimism. it dosent works anymore. im tired.
thanks for reading this. i hope you will do well, and have a wonderfull, bright day
bye
wel, I am a 16 years old male person, you may say, heh, a teenager, whats the problems can teenager have, may God give him a swat, so he stand up and stoped crying. I'll say, remember yourself when you was 16. AHEM.
soo whats bothering me
isolation. 16 yrs, it is the period when you have a freedom, but still have a care, so it is the peak of your social activity, and fun with people of your age, when you live, earn good memories, and gain experience. I would say fuck it all out of my envy on this world, anger, and (moslty) devastating dissapointment
I have no opportunity, and no strength to get opportunity to live this fascinainting period. I have no friends to casually talk to anybody, hang out with someone, and loosing strength to keep searching. I have a succes of search. But its painfull to keep up. So i often loose it. Sometimes people and circusmanstes lead to loose. i live in ukraine, there is a goddamn war that prevents me from meeting classmates at school, and keeps me beign isolated. and, i cant have normal learning, due to war, it is harder, and i have no strength to learn normally. yay. Also, a factor of a goddamn war. I fucking bear it for a 5 years. From my very little 11 years age. How I managed to deserve it.
You say: use your loneliness to learn skills, and do what you like!
i answer. In cause of loneliness, there is nothing what can cheer me a lot, and there is no such a desire or strength to do what i like. The only reason of living is nothing but fantasies and dreams. ALL OF THIS things WAS easier earlier. I TRULY WANT to re-born earlier, at the start of 2000-s, 90-s, 80-s, 70-s also good.
i did selfharm, a few times, seeing it as an only opportunity to copy. It always was an only opportunity to copy when I did it. I feel my life is a waste. There is too much unluck
of course, there is would be adult life, and everything is ahead. awww, go to hell. this thought stopped to serve as an optimism. it dosent works anymore. im tired.
thanks for reading this. i hope you will do well, and have a wonderfull, bright day
bye
