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I cant do it - regression
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I was admitted to the mental health center 2 days ago. It Is only going worse. I get very angry for nothing, i kick and bang walls and my anger Is spiralling out of control. I cry because im alone and feel lonely and talking with psych or psychiatrist Is not of any help. They say: we do what we can, the sh1t Is yours, you deal with It. Im angered, frustrated and dont see any way out.
Thank you all for supporting me. I appreciate It a lot
Thank you all for supporting me. I appreciate It a lot
That takes a lot of courage!
I decided to hospitalize myself a few years ago, didn't have a clue what was going to happen, they decided to only partially hospitalized me. I have probably some kind of schizophrenia, they haven't decided yet what is my diagnosis, I was completely depressed and alienated from life. Looking back it was the best thing I could do.
I'm sorry you feel alone I know what these feelings ( anger and loneliness ) can be like and how far they can go, I almost committed first degree murder... I hated everyone, I yelled, I cried but these emotions with time became easier - if you don't hold on to grudges they won't last forever. Be strong, you can do it I'm sure
I decided to hospitalize myself a few years ago, didn't have a clue what was going to happen, they decided to only partially hospitalized me. I have probably some kind of schizophrenia, they haven't decided yet what is my diagnosis, I was completely depressed and alienated from life. Looking back it was the best thing I could do.
I'm sorry you feel alone I know what these feelings ( anger and loneliness ) can be like and how far they can go, I almost committed first degree murder... I hated everyone, I yelled, I cried but these emotions with time became easier - if you don't hold on to grudges they won't last forever. Be strong, you can do it I'm sure
You've a right to get angry. hugs @dying_inside
I hope you didn't hurt yourself.
Please keep us posted.
I hope you didn't hurt yourself.
Please keep us posted.
It shouldn't be this way..maybe don't put your trust in psychiatrists and therapists..if it works,great but..idk..talk to God..God is a great listener..he will listen to all of your troubles..Guardian angel is always there by your side..I just wish that your suffering subsides..strong hugs and sending love..🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂
I think I see the way they're trying to play it, or how they're trying to go about handling you @dying_inside - &, I just hope it's having the desired effect. Or that they have chosen their strategy wisely... I'm going to come back to this later, you just take care of yourself & try to forget about them for the time-being (as in, "now."). I hope I see this when I log back in, hopefully with a more settled mind, so that I can try to come up with something decent to offer you. I think you're doing a mighty fine job in spite of all the forces that seem to be at play, and working against you at present. It may not feel like it, but to some certain extent, you are winning the battle (going on) in your head. Which is a victory that is often difficult to claim for me! 
I'm sorry your Dad won't let you stay at home with them. That has to feel awful and terrible, if it's something you feel would truly be good for and help you... And also sorry to hear that your experience after admission to the mental health center was not more positive. Though they're rarely fun, sometimes they can be a good thing, if they keep or prevent you from doing something to hurt yourself. But beyond that, I agree, the treatment can at times by staff - leave a lot to be desired.
Have you found any strategies or techniques, that have been successful in helping you to deal with your anger in a productive fashion or way in the past? And have any been offered, or recommended to you that you have not tried before (now)? If not, or the answer to one or both of those is, "No" at least for/or in the 'here & now,' then what might you think could help with this issue, or difficulty.
Because it certainly sounds like it's something that is fairly distressing and uncomfortable for you, and probably ultimately, unhealthy - in that, it must feel like you take a bad situation (the emotions you're currently feeling in that moment) & then transferring them over to a destructive manner, or sense/fashion.
Do you feel any less alone, or lonely when you are able to (go to) work? Or is that not the kind of company you are craving, or that you are talking about which would be helpful and therefore, desirable? There's always a way out. It's just sometimes hidden, or really hard to find and / or "see." So don't give up hope @dying_inside / We're all here for you & have got your back.
Have you found any strategies or techniques, that have been successful in helping you to deal with your anger in a productive fashion or way in the past? And have any been offered, or recommended to you that you have not tried before (now)? If not, or the answer to one or both of those is, "No" at least for/or in the 'here & now,' then what might you think could help with this issue, or difficulty.
Because it certainly sounds like it's something that is fairly distressing and uncomfortable for you, and probably ultimately, unhealthy - in that, it must feel like you take a bad situation (the emotions you're currently feeling in that moment) & then transferring them over to a destructive manner, or sense/fashion.
Do you feel any less alone, or lonely when you are able to (go to) work? Or is that not the kind of company you are craving, or that you are talking about which would be helpful and therefore, desirable? There's always a way out. It's just sometimes hidden, or really hard to find and / or "see." So don't give up hope @dying_inside / We're all here for you & have got your back.
How are you doing today @dying_inside? Sending you some good thoughts.
The meds theyre giving me are slowly starting to work. I dont get caught by those horrible anger attacks and superficially im doing overall Better.
(I Guess mostly because i havent gone back home or to work yet).
But underneath nothing has been solved. I keep hating my job, my flat and the whole life. And still want to die...
I dont see any solution to this.
But thank you all for caring and being there. It means a lot to me.
(I Guess mostly because i havent gone back home or to work yet).
But underneath nothing has been solved. I keep hating my job, my flat and the whole life. And still want to die...
I dont see any solution to this.
But thank you all for caring and being there. It means a lot to me.
Yesterday i came out of IP... not happy about it, i wasnt ready for going back to the real world and it hit hard soon.
Today i had to put my cat to sleep because she was very ill and i didnt want her to agonize for just breathing... now she's at peace.
i wish someone would do the same for me. put me to sleep forever, painlessly and out of pity.
im devastated and crying all the time...
Today i had to put my cat to sleep because she was very ill and i didnt want her to agonize for just breathing... now she's at peace.
i wish someone would do the same for me. put me to sleep forever, painlessly and out of pity.
im devastated and crying all the time...
I hope you find prace and healing after the initial grief subsides. You're a wonderfully caring person. Sorry for the loss of your pet. I hope there are many good memories. Take extra gentle care of yourself @dying_inside