I finally get somewhere in a relationship and then my life has another setback. My friends won't talk to me adding to a list which also consists of my Dad, Half Sister and countless other moronic relatives. I've never met my half sister before but I've made a big attempt in trying to know her as I traced her down online with very little information on her at my disposal. I've mentioned on here before that my Father only bothers with his other children two of which live locally and hasn't seen me, brother or little sister in ten years. I feel isolated by people for not having my Dad around or for being unable to tell them much about him. All my friends who have had normal upbringings are excel in life where as I'm struggling to keep pace with things. I don't want to tell my girlfriend about my past but I know I'm going to have to cough up sooner or later. My friends tell me I'm boring and then wonder why I can't face going out with them it's so frustrating the minute I socialise they want to drag me into the gutter. Now when I need a foe to talk to about my adorable girlfriend they are nowhere to be heard off and I can't turn to any family members because they just don't exist in my world. My ex girlfriend surely is right, I'm the happiest I've been in years yet I'd get more company in a dark graveyard then I would of the living. I find it totally hard to accept when people say I should just forget about people who don't care about me but I'm not blessed with people I can turn to and I literally would spill my guts up to my worst enemy if it meant having a shoulder to cry on. I really want to know about my family background, I wanted to have my first legal alcoholic beverage in a pub or bar with my Dad, I want to know all about my older half sister but they won't let me in or make any effort with me. I feel cursed in life. I want to be able to tell my girlfriend about the man who created me and the blood ties I have but I can't and it's so annoying. Everybody I know has a strong family network I feel so out of the loop it's unfair. I even stopped speaking to a friend because he kept insisting I went to his family parties of people I didn't know, just because I'd go home crying as I could never have a bond with any of my family like he has.