My friends talk about their futures, their hobbies, holidays/days out, fears, etc. And I can't relate at all. I have no plans for the future because I don't want to live much longer with this chronic pain (among a bunch of other health issues). And I think my brain is broken because I went from having anxiety all my life, to suddenly not caring about anything. In a way it's nice/freeing, in another way, it makes me feel like an alien, having no basic survival fears of death, no fear-driven motivation, etc.
And then I see my friends and family go on holidays and days out, meanwhile most days I'm in too much pain to even get out of bed.
I have absolutely no energy for hobbies 99% of the time.
I'm also isolating myself a lot (not purely by choice, most of the people in my life are very busy lately), and don't use social media anymore, not even to scroll. And now whenever I do talk to someone it really hits me how out of touch I've become.
I feel like I've lost everything that makes me human, and it's so isolating.
And then I see my friends and family go on holidays and days out, meanwhile most days I'm in too much pain to even get out of bed.
I have absolutely no energy for hobbies 99% of the time.
I'm also isolating myself a lot (not purely by choice, most of the people in my life are very busy lately), and don't use social media anymore, not even to scroll. And now whenever I do talk to someone it really hits me how out of touch I've become.
I feel like I've lost everything that makes me human, and it's so isolating.
