I am 18 years old and I just graduated from high school. I'm at major low for my life right now, due to some problems with taxes I wasn't able to get financial aid for my university I was originally going to go to, and now I have to settle for a community college. I'm trying to take classes that actually interest me now, and actually make me happy. Yet I don't see how this is going to help me get a job. Even then if I take classes to transfer I may be at that college for well over 4 years, I'm just done with all this intellectual and boring work; I want to do what makes me happy, but that just isn't how the world works, it's almost as if my life needs to miserable in order to live. I have no skills at all, so I don't know if their any jobs out there for me. I can't stand staying with my parents anymore, so I've been searching for a well paying job I can do but they all want bachelor degrees. I can't even find a internship. A university seems so impossible now for me, yet without a degree from a university I may never be able to find a job. Even then what I want to do, there isn't really a good paying position for it, or it's nearly impossible to make a living off of.
I like doing art, and writing but I can't get paid doing it. I'm trying to take photography classes and maybe do freelance photography, but odds are I may not go well since that business is dying quick. I learning programing so I can do freelance web design, but again most people want you to have a degree. I'm out of ideas of what to do anymore. I can't see a future for myself at all. I starting to just feel like dying would be best for me. I couldn't get into a good college, so now I may never be able to make a living. I don't have any skills or talents(just because I like drawing and writing doesn't mean I'm good at it). I simply can't find a job to save my life. I don't know what to do anymore, I'm so tried of fighting. I just want to be happy and to relax for once, but it seems like that'll never happen. I really don't see any other option but suicide now.
I like doing art, and writing but I can't get paid doing it. I'm trying to take photography classes and maybe do freelance photography, but odds are I may not go well since that business is dying quick. I learning programing so I can do freelance web design, but again most people want you to have a degree. I'm out of ideas of what to do anymore. I can't see a future for myself at all. I starting to just feel like dying would be best for me. I couldn't get into a good college, so now I may never be able to make a living. I don't have any skills or talents(just because I like drawing and writing doesn't mean I'm good at it). I simply can't find a job to save my life. I don't know what to do anymore, I'm so tried of fighting. I just want to be happy and to relax for once, but it seems like that'll never happen. I really don't see any other option but suicide now.