Ive been suicidal since I was ten years old. I feel like i'm destined to die by my own hands. I've attempted it at 15 and thought about it many many times since. Im now 28. When things go right in my life, I keep thinking...oh wow Im just waiting for the ball to drop. When things go bad, Suicide is the first thought that comes to my mind. I wish my mind didnt work this way but it does. I have a daughter and people say..oh you're being selfish...what about her? Its like Damn! what about her? What about me? I'm in pain and no one seems to give a hell about that.