Ok, maybe not "hate" I just..I don't know. Long ago I went to a room to protect me from other things, can't remember why, but I guess I never went out.
All I ever do is eat, shit, and sleep.
Yet some-fucking-how I always act surprised when things get worse. I saw it coming, how can I not?
Never do anything, never finish anything, never really want anything, no dreams, no goals, no friends-no real friends...fuck it. I don't deserve to live. I'm not okay, that much is obvious. I don't deserve help and support either cuz, I'll just fuck that too (not gonna be the first time it happen)
Shoulda go all the way when I decided to shut myself in. It'll be better for everyone. Don't know that many people anyway.
I don't know what these make me.
I don't wanna feel sorry for myself though, I know I deserve everything bad that has ever happened to me, and everything good too. I know that because I know what I am, and to be completely honest; that should revoke my right to live. I know that's sounds a bit too harsh, but I think I the man who has wasted every advantage he was born with, every chances given, every opportunity shown, deserves exactly that.
I'm nothing but a waste...that was some self-pitying bullshit. no. no. I don't wanna feel sorry for myself, I don't blame anyone or anything, I simply know I got what I deserved, and I don't even deserve to breathe. So, I think, I should just end it, it'll be better for everyone, I'll just go away...
All I ever do is eat, shit, and sleep.
Yet some-fucking-how I always act surprised when things get worse. I saw it coming, how can I not?
Never do anything, never finish anything, never really want anything, no dreams, no goals, no friends-no real friends...fuck it. I don't deserve to live. I'm not okay, that much is obvious. I don't deserve help and support either cuz, I'll just fuck that too (not gonna be the first time it happen)
Shoulda go all the way when I decided to shut myself in. It'll be better for everyone. Don't know that many people anyway.
I don't know what these make me.
I don't wanna feel sorry for myself though, I know I deserve everything bad that has ever happened to me, and everything good too. I know that because I know what I am, and to be completely honest; that should revoke my right to live. I know that's sounds a bit too harsh, but I think I the man who has wasted every advantage he was born with, every chances given, every opportunity shown, deserves exactly that.
I'm nothing but a waste...that was some self-pitying bullshit. no. no. I don't wanna feel sorry for myself, I don't blame anyone or anything, I simply know I got what I deserved, and I don't even deserve to breathe. So, I think, I should just end it, it'll be better for everyone, I'll just go away...