I have feelings for one of my best friend. Yes, I know, it's very typical and cliche and all that noise, which is why I told myself nothing would ever come of it. I knew he didn't reciprocate, and I don't know when my feelings for him turned into something romantic rather than platonic, but I knew it was just bad news so I tried to get over it. My biggest mistake it seems, was trusting another friend with the information. I told her about these weird feelings I had, and she swore that she wouldn't tell anyone about them.
I know where you think this is going, but hear me out.
A week ago, she pranced around in front of me loudly proclaiming that she had set this guy up with another girl, clearly very proud of herself. I'm not mad about him not getting with me, I knew it would happen already. What I'm mad about is her disregard for my feelings. I'm not saying she had to keep it a secret or anything, but it was though she were trying to rub my face in the fact that one of the things I wanted most would never happen. I feel mocked, and mostly I feel betrayed. I knew this guy was not for me, I knew we would never be together but I feel like maybe this girl could have been a little bit more kind in the way she went about things. Instead of dancing around yelling "I'M GONNA GET X LAAAAIIIIIIIID I'M THE BEST!" She could have maybe just, I dunno behaved like a normal person and kept her tits calm?
So I collected myself. I took deep breaths, I waited until I was calm to confront her and explain how her actions had hurt my feelings. Only for her to flip everything back on me saying "It's not my fault he doesn't want you, don't be jealous." She completely misinterpreted what I was upset about, and despite multiple times explaining that I was not mad about the fact he doesn't like me, because that was a fact I ALREADY KNEW, she's still insisting that I'm mad that I'm single. She can't wrap her mind around why I'm actually hurt, and now she's telling everyone in our collective friend group her spin on why I'm upset.
I'm fucked. Literally. I'm losing all of my friends, all because I decided to confront a problem instead of bottling it like I usually do.
I shouldn't have said anything.
I know where you think this is going, but hear me out.
A week ago, she pranced around in front of me loudly proclaiming that she had set this guy up with another girl, clearly very proud of herself. I'm not mad about him not getting with me, I knew it would happen already. What I'm mad about is her disregard for my feelings. I'm not saying she had to keep it a secret or anything, but it was though she were trying to rub my face in the fact that one of the things I wanted most would never happen. I feel mocked, and mostly I feel betrayed. I knew this guy was not for me, I knew we would never be together but I feel like maybe this girl could have been a little bit more kind in the way she went about things. Instead of dancing around yelling "I'M GONNA GET X LAAAAIIIIIIIID I'M THE BEST!" She could have maybe just, I dunno behaved like a normal person and kept her tits calm?
So I collected myself. I took deep breaths, I waited until I was calm to confront her and explain how her actions had hurt my feelings. Only for her to flip everything back on me saying "It's not my fault he doesn't want you, don't be jealous." She completely misinterpreted what I was upset about, and despite multiple times explaining that I was not mad about the fact he doesn't like me, because that was a fact I ALREADY KNEW, she's still insisting that I'm mad that I'm single. She can't wrap her mind around why I'm actually hurt, and now she's telling everyone in our collective friend group her spin on why I'm upset.
I'm fucked. Literally. I'm losing all of my friends, all because I decided to confront a problem instead of bottling it like I usually do.
I shouldn't have said anything.