I Know this Doesnt Belong

[gentlelady]

I am sure Gabe that Julian didn't resent you for being healthy. As a friend, he would have wanted you to be the most that you could be. I know were the roles reversed, you would not have resented him. You would have wished him the best and told him to continue on without you. We can never understand why things happen the way they do. We have to learn to accept them and go on. Much easier said than done. :hug:

 

[Ze'ev-Hayalim]

i just want him back, what the hell does your god need of him

 

[tearsforhumanity]

i think many search for things that cannot be found. Do we live our live through others instead of ourselves? I dont know anymore. First time i have used this forum and i am desperate right now. I need to survive the feeling i feel right now and i dont know how to.

 

[kath]

hey your thread touched me so much.im sorry i didnt get here sooner.ive sent you a PM but just wondered how you are doing now?

 

[Ze'ev-Hayalim]

my heart is broken, my eyes are sore, my mouth is pained from screaming

like a puppet on a string, i wish god would cut my chains.

 

[gentlelady]

Gabe, I wish so badly that I could take that pain from your heart and leave there only the good times. No one knows why others time on this earth is short while some stay for what seems to be an eternity. You told me once you were going to try to be positive. I know that isn't always possible, but i am asking you to keep trying. Follow the advice you tell me when I am feeling as you do. I am thinking of you. :hug: I will return your call soon. I am sorry i haven't had the opportunity yet.

 

[Jodi]

Ze'ev-Hayalim,

I'm so sorry for your pain....wish thier was more we could do....so glad you have some friends here helping you out.....please do take good care....sincerly...-Jodi

 

[Ze'ev-Hayalim]

dreamt about Julian last night, he stood before me and said he had to go somewhere.

i just sat there and cried in my own dream.

 

[Ze'ev-Hayalim]

being without him is like walking down a familiar road, but when you turn around to hear someone's voice, there's no one but yourself.


i miss him so much.