Firstly, i'm not suicidal at the moment....I just needed to get my thoughts down in writing.
I found out on saturday that a good friend that i've known for 12 years was killed in a car crash that morning (he apparantly rear ended a lorry at an intersection after not stopping in time). He was in his mid 30's
He was someone that I only knew and spoke to online (mainly due to being in a different country). I ran a chat server network with him for several years, which is still operational now.
Even though I only knew him online, he was almost like a brother to me.
He rarely had a bad word to say about anyone. I found out about his untimely death via a facebook page that he had me join. He was on his way to a railroad museum that he volunteered at when the crash occurred. The facebook page belonged to the museum, but he helped administrate the page.
I keep looking at his facebook, and hoping that he'll pop online, and say he's ok, even though I know that's no longer possible.
He was a good guy, and his facebook profile, and the messages on it from everyone that knew him regarding his passing are a testiment to that.
His phone (or maybe one of his computers) was still online when I sent a rest in peace in message to him on saturday evening. It said delivered. Knowing that he'll never again respond is one of the hardest things to get my head round.
I just miss his messages and jokes so much.
I found out on saturday that a good friend that i've known for 12 years was killed in a car crash that morning (he apparantly rear ended a lorry at an intersection after not stopping in time). He was in his mid 30's
He was someone that I only knew and spoke to online (mainly due to being in a different country). I ran a chat server network with him for several years, which is still operational now.
Even though I only knew him online, he was almost like a brother to me.
He rarely had a bad word to say about anyone. I found out about his untimely death via a facebook page that he had me join. He was on his way to a railroad museum that he volunteered at when the crash occurred. The facebook page belonged to the museum, but he helped administrate the page.
I keep looking at his facebook, and hoping that he'll pop online, and say he's ok, even though I know that's no longer possible.
He was a good guy, and his facebook profile, and the messages on it from everyone that knew him regarding his passing are a testiment to that.
His phone (or maybe one of his computers) was still online when I sent a rest in peace in message to him on saturday evening. It said delivered. Knowing that he'll never again respond is one of the hardest things to get my head round.
I just miss his messages and jokes so much.