Hurting so much but its not pain from a cut. I've done my time, now please I'm in so much pain, physical, mental, emotional I need out. why can't i just die in my sleep tonight, just take me please.
They say, you do the crime
you do the time.
They say, it’s not my crime
So why am I doing the time?
I’m told, its them who done the crime
Its them who are the criminals
It’s them who are the offenders
But it’s me whose being punished.
I don’t understand...
I’m doing the time
I’m being punished
so I must be the criminal.
I’m locked in a world of silence
The prison walls surround me
I’m nothing,
I can't escape, can't be free
no one can see
no one can hear
the fears that are locked inside me
the memories, the thoughts
all trapped in my mind
The prison walls are built so high
This place is worse than a maze
Lost, and fading away
Each day, each minute, each second
A bit more of me disappears
But no one sees
No one hears,
As I’m locked in a place
Where nobody cares
I’m losing the fight
Unable to find a way out
The prison walls too high for me to climb,
I’m blindfolded in a maze,
Needing help, needing guidance
But there is nobody around,
Nobody will come near
As I sit and rot away
I don’t know who I am
For I was lost a long time ago
I don’t know where I am
As I lost my way a long time ago
I don’t understand why me
Or why anyone...
I don’t understand
Why the officers won’t help me
I have been trying for so long to get help
The drugs came after,
Not before...
The drugs gave warmth,
Warmth I’ve never felt from love
Or from care.
The drugs, where my only friend
Doesn’t judge me
Doesn’t look at me in disgust
Drugs provided comfort
When I needed someone there
Drugs never walked away
When times got difficult
Drugs calmed me down
When my moods where higher than a kite
Drugs I thought were my friends
Now realise there were like everyone else
They have taken everything from me
My friends, my money, my life.
Drugs are the same as them...
Tricked me to thinking it was love,
That I was “special”
that I was the only one,
the pain that they caused,
I believed was the price you pay
For the love, that I thought they showed me
Now.......
I’ve lost everything
I’ve lost more of me
I’ve lost my sense of being
I’ve lost my sense of wanting
I’ve lost my mind
I’ve lost the fight
I’ve lost the battle
Each day I breathe,
Is punishment to me
Now please just let me be..
Let me go, let me be free
Let me die please.
I’m ready...this time next week
I will be gone....
I needed a sign
That something would change
Would give me hope
Nothing came,
So alone I died.
They say, you do the crime
you do the time.
They say, it’s not my crime
So why am I doing the time?
I’m told, its them who done the crime
Its them who are the criminals
It’s them who are the offenders
But it’s me whose being punished.
I don’t understand...
I’m doing the time
I’m being punished
so I must be the criminal.
I’m locked in a world of silence
The prison walls surround me
I’m nothing,
I can't escape, can't be free
no one can see
no one can hear
the fears that are locked inside me
the memories, the thoughts
all trapped in my mind
The prison walls are built so high
This place is worse than a maze
Lost, and fading away
Each day, each minute, each second
A bit more of me disappears
But no one sees
No one hears,
As I’m locked in a place
Where nobody cares
I’m losing the fight
Unable to find a way out
The prison walls too high for me to climb,
I’m blindfolded in a maze,
Needing help, needing guidance
But there is nobody around,
Nobody will come near
As I sit and rot away
I don’t know who I am
For I was lost a long time ago
I don’t know where I am
As I lost my way a long time ago
I don’t understand why me
Or why anyone...
I don’t understand
Why the officers won’t help me
I have been trying for so long to get help
The drugs came after,
Not before...
The drugs gave warmth,
Warmth I’ve never felt from love
Or from care.
The drugs, where my only friend
Doesn’t judge me
Doesn’t look at me in disgust
Drugs provided comfort
When I needed someone there
Drugs never walked away
When times got difficult
Drugs calmed me down
When my moods where higher than a kite
Drugs I thought were my friends
Now realise there were like everyone else
They have taken everything from me
My friends, my money, my life.
Drugs are the same as them...
Tricked me to thinking it was love,
That I was “special”
that I was the only one,
the pain that they caused,
I believed was the price you pay
For the love, that I thought they showed me
Now.......
I’ve lost everything
I’ve lost more of me
I’ve lost my sense of being
I’ve lost my sense of wanting
I’ve lost my mind
I’ve lost the fight
I’ve lost the battle
Each day I breathe,
Is punishment to me
Now please just let me be..
Let me go, let me be free
Let me die please.
I’m ready...this time next week
I will be gone....
I needed a sign
That something would change
Would give me hope
Nothing came,
So alone I died.