You know for all my want and desire to get in shape, I sure fuck myself over a lot. The fact that I am sitting here sipping on a 44 oz Coke from Subway is proof of that. I need to stop fucking doing this. Yet I am a weakling. I need my sweet fatty foods and sugars. Because I am a weak little... umm weakling :sweat: do not want to say girl.
I am not looking for sympathy. I do not deserve it. I have been on this regiment for almost a month now. If anything I want to be scolded. How does one keep their strength when depression weakens them?
I should just kill myself and get it over with. Right now I am lying to myself. I am not dedicated enough to lose the weight. The coke is not the only thing I had this weekend. I had many more things. Sonic Ocean water, a buffalo burger. I am just a fraud. Good by $1000
I am not looking for sympathy. I do not deserve it. I have been on this regiment for almost a month now. If anything I want to be scolded. How does one keep their strength when depression weakens them?
I should just kill myself and get it over with. Right now I am lying to myself. I am not dedicated enough to lose the weight. The coke is not the only thing I had this weekend. I had many more things. Sonic Ocean water, a buffalo burger. I am just a fraud. Good by $1000