These suicidal thoughts are lasting longer than they ever have. I feel confused, and I cant see a future for me. I'm living moment by moment and I plan ahead for anything good. Two weeks ago I was fine, but now I'm a mess. Genuinely don't know what to do. But I have found one friend in real life, I want to be there for him. I'm young and reckless, I feel like an idiot, why I am I still here!? If you have any advice please tell me, I think its getting day by day.