I want to cry...

[Rukia]

...but I can't. Not now. :cry: I need to focus on my teacher.

I got really triggered, but it's my own fault. I hardly ever think about him anymore, but I thought it would be nice to pm him and wish him a happy birthday. I know he's happy and that's great, but I didn't need to read that. He's playing "our" game with her. I know I'm :screwloos, it doesn't matter really. I'm not in his life anymore, I'm better off without him. Isn't it my turn to be happy soon?

I can't focus, I'm shaking to much on the inside. :cry:

 

[White Dove]

Rukie :hug:

 

[Rukia]

Thanks :hug:

 

[Blackness]

did you have an affair with your teacher?
you need to get past this hun :hug:

 

[Rukia]

No, I didn't. But I'm in school right now, and I don't want to cry in front of all my classmates.

I was talking about my x.

 

[Blackness]

oh right sorry my bad
just on out until schools out hun then just cry cry cry

 

[Eno]

I hope the tears have come. It is not a nice way to feel I know but I usually feel so much better for crying when the tears finally fall. I hope you're feeling a bit better right now.

 

[Rukia]

I can't cry on the outside, only when I'm drunk. I wish I could, then I might not feel so suicidal all the time. :sad: