I want to scream

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by vincali, Feb 7, 2016.

  1. vincali

    vincali Member

    I have nightmares almost every night. There is so much going on in my head that I can't explain it all. It's eating me alive and I want to feel normal again. I feel as though my experience of life is determined by the people you meet along the way. That is to say if you meet crappy people your life will be crappy. If you meet good people your life will be good. So why does't everyone just try a little harder to be good? We're all human and we all feel. It's getting to me I just can't handle it anymore. And I know that expectation and disappointment go hand in hand. But does it really count if all I'm expecting is for someone to care?
  2. Freya

    Freya Loves SF Staff Member ADMIN

    I am sorry that you are having such a hard time. It is not unreasonable to want (or even expect) someone to care and I am sorry that you have had such bad experiences with people in your life disappointing you. There are a lot of good people in the world (lots of them here) and life can get better. Its good to talk about what is going on in your head - even if you have to explain a little piece at a time to get it all out.

    Keep talking to us!
  3. I agree people should try harder. Author Fay Weldon wrote that health, happiness and beauty go around in a closed circle, admitting no outsider. I agree that's how people behave much of the time, sadly. I wish it wasn't that way. As for your nightmares, have you tried preparing yourself in some way? Before I go to sleep I arm myself with an imaginary sword and shield. Corny as it sounds, it does seem to work (I have less nightmares).
  4. vincali

    vincali Member

    I seem to be writing more on here than I thought I would. It's really helping me and everyone I have run into is caring and nice. I feel at home thank you.
  5. vincali

    vincali Member

    I will try that!!! I'll see what works for me. Thank you for the advice.
  6. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    I just want to wish you the best of luck in what you are going through, I have been through similar thoughts and even today while having anxiety attacks, I am SO glad that you joining here has helped you a lot and I hope it continues to! (gentle hugs) and be safe my friend =)
  7. vincali

    vincali Member

    Thank you. Thank you so much :)