im really doing everything i can to distract myself from this pain but it keeps hurting more. im in school and have my schedule packed between classes and part time work but the pain is always constant i cant focus on anything anymore. i dont want to go to the hospital. is there anything i can do for mental pain that manifests physically in my head and chest from my house? i dont have a car and cant walk that far anymore without almost collapsing. all the old stuff i did have zero effect now. a friend from a long time ago said shrooms and i refused because i thought it'd make my depression worse and awaken all the old trauma. that isnt concerning anymore because i relive trauma every couple minutes so would that be an option for me? or am i stupid? you are all welcome to call me stupid if you want because i am pretty stupid.

