It's my Heart not my Head

[41021]

:sad:
*****tears*****
me too because it doesn't feel like it's gonna be alright
but i just want her
i don't feel good
ugh
:sad:
i just

 

[IV2010]

:console::sad::heart::hug:
**tears**..with you

 

[41021]

:hug: for you
**tears**
i'm sorry :sad:

 

[IV2010]

:hug: for you
**tears**
i'm sorry :sad:

don't be sorry...not your fault...
I've been crying for my Mum for days now to help with my own stuff...:cheekkiss

 

[41021]

didnt know anyone else did that
***

 

[41021]

i am too tired now

 

[IV2010]

yeah I do at the moment....I was telling her the other day I need her here to give me a hug...it's 7 years tomorrow since she's been gone......I want her here to help me through my grief....I am so old but guess we never get over wanting our Mums..
:hug:

 

[IV2010]

ok..you rest ..hugs

 

[41021]

i wouldn't dare tell her
just cry and want to be held
**tears**
don'tnfeel good logging off now
:hug: i hope u can feel better ***

 

[readytoctb]

Kali, I miss you so much. I have so much to tell you and no way to do it. The feelings are so overwhelming and I have no one to talk to. The nights are almost as bad as the mornings now. I wish you would contact me.

 

[IV2010]

:console::hug::flowers:

 

[Things]

Rationalizing helps some people, it helps me at least. It gives an explanation, a reason, and normalizes the problem (at least for me).

I'm sorry you're feeling so awful. I hope this doesn't sound as empty as I think it does. I just don't know what to say to make it better.

 

[41021]

*s**Things

My ability to rationalize gets lost, the closer i am to the edge of the canyon. Then all i my head can see, in it's attempt to quell my heart's hurting, is freedom. Nothing else makes any sense.

 

[IV2010]

kali..I need to talk to you about Ozinuk...how can I do that?....

 

[41021]

where is he? my chest is pounding and i cannot get my breath? where is my steve?

 

[41021]

he just signed in. you scared me :sad:

 

[41021]

ugh go awayu
io hate u

 

[IV2010]

do you want me to go away kali?..I'm sorry......hugs