Jim's Cafe, 10th of May, 2021

[johnDoen]

I'm not sure. I don't feel much welcome, nor needed, nor love in life. I regret every moment of breathing and the decision to stay 2 years ago. No one remember what happened, but me, as all the pain has always been with me. The ones you asked for help put their egos into their heads and blamed you for being abnormal, less of a man, coward, and selfish. Am I even matter in this life?

(Sorry, for tagging you to read all that. This section is supposed to be more light-hearted)

What happened on this day, really?

• 28 BC, first sunspot recorded in Han dynasty, China.
• 1497, Amerigo Vespucci left to the New World.
• 1503, Christopher Columbus called Cayman Islands "las Tortugas" because of turtles.
• 1534, Jacques Cartier visited Newfoundland.
• 1773, people of Boston threw tea boxes into the sea. They then drank coffee, instead.
• 1824, the National Gallery opened to the public.
• 1904, Audi (then named Horch ... ) was founded.
• 1908, first celebration of Mothers' Day in the US.
• 1994, Nelson Mandela is inaugurated as the President of South Africa.

The Mirror of All Desires
If you have ever read/watched the first book/movie of the Harry Potter series (Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone), you might remember this one. It is called the Mirror of Erised, which shows the viewer's deepest desires, hence the name of today's topic. So, what do you see? What are your deepest desires revealed in that mirror?
For the seal, it was "fibsh", whatever that means. I can only see my desires, not the seal's.

 

[johnDoen]

@adamjam @Aspasia @Ash600 @alice202 @Auri
@MisterBGone @Waves @Citizen Insane @Jayjay289 @may71

 

[johnDoen]

@1964dodge @JMG @Witty⭐️Sarcasm ⭐️ @iloverachel @Zinnia
@HappyKitty @Walker @Sassy the Wonderful Cat @Gonz @Pebble mouse

 

[johnDoen]

@RCee @Lady Wolfshead @Livelife @Angie @Dante
@Aurelia @Autumn1973 @Blue Star @Catch_22 @Champagne

 

[johnDoen]

@Dinolaur @extraterrestrialone @Harrow @Holding my breath @FlamingoWrangler
@Inya @Kira @KM76710 @A_J_R @Lane

 

[johnDoen]

@KindaOtiose @sadhart @seeking connection @SillyOldBear @sinking_ship
@Sunspots @The Tigress ♡ @VioletDawn @Thauoy @Road to Nowhere

 

[MisterBGone]

@the.end.ish @total eclipse @ @Astrid78 @It's Just Lark @BlueKoala @BlueGreen @Catch_22 @Waves

 

[MisterBGone]

@Champagne @Kiwi2016 @Luthien Tinuviel @Innocent Forever @Anonymous ID @LonelyHiker @Ineluki @Soda-Voxel

 

[Astrid78]

Hello @johnDoen great topic for a cafe and I love how you described the Boston tea party, it made me laugh I admire the tenacity it must take to look up the facts and all that tagging.
My deepest desire is to know what it feels like to be cared for, loved, what does it mean and how does it feel?

 

[Astrid78]

@the.end.ish @total eclipse @ @Astrid78 @It's Just Lark @BlueKoala @BlueGreen @Catch_22 @Waves

Tysm for the tag! Hope your day is going well.

 

[BlueKoala]

Thank you for tagging me!
My deepest desire would probably be to have choice and to have the freedom to live by my own. (I’m too young for that, right now, unfortunately).

 

[Dinolaur]

Thanks for the tag @johnDoen

my deepest desire hmm 🤔 maybe to be loved for who I am. To have the rest of my life without depression/anxiety and nerve pain

 

[may71]

Am I even matter in this life?

You matter John, whether the people around you treat you as if you do or not. I hope that things can get better for you soon

So, what do you see? What are your deepest desires revealed in that mirror?

I think I would want to see a world that is as free from suffering and as full as happiness as possible. I think the mirror might reveal some selfish desires too, but I think the greater good is more important.

 

[Dante]

Thanks @johnDoen for the cafe, the tag and the OH SO PERSONAL question.

"Tell me everyone, what is the deepest most desperate desire of your heart?" :P

I would see me, with a woman beside me, and a family we made together around us. They would be bright eyed, and happy, and so would I.

 

[JMG]

Tysm for tagging me for the cafe & for posting it today @johnDoen I second what may71 said, you definitely do matter in this life, we all do even if it doesn't feel like we do or we aren't sure what our reason is for being here. I believe that everything happens for a reason. Hopefully one day we do find out for sure what that reason is. I'm sorry you are doubting such a thing, I know the pain of feeling that way for sure as many other members here and people in the world in general also know too. Hope you feel better soon. Lots of special, comforting hugs to you

I can't answer that mirror of desire question though sorry, it will only make me extremely depressed. I really like what Dumbledore says to Harry in that scene in both the book and movie - That it does not do to dwell on dreams and forget to live. Those are very wise words imo. To think of such a thing like that is the complete opposite of expressing gratitude for all the things I'm grateful for which is what I need to be focusing on stronger than ever right now. Some of the many things I'm grateful for in my life are this site, my mom, sis and a few other family members, the few friends I have and who I can really talk to about things, my sweet perfect lil kitty, Star Wars, Mark Hamill, chocolate, cookies, ice cream, animals, trees, flowers - nature basically lol, my pillow, room and all the things I have that are good. I'm a very lucky woman in this world
Hope everyone has a great day, sending lots of hugs of love and comfort as always

 

[A_J_R]

My deepest desire is kind of obvious since I post about it all the time, but I miss my ex. The friendship, the warmth and the adventure. he is my deepest desire. And that's a problem. Cuz he's a serial cheater and a liar.

But I guess since that was toxic, my actual deepest desire is to understand what happened when he did the things he did, and to be able to finally let go. I just don't know. I don't see that happening, and it's such a struggle.

 

[Livelife]

My deepest desire is kind of obvious since I post about it all the time, but I miss my ex. The friendship, the warmth and the adventure. he is my deepest desire. And that's a problem. Cuz he's a serial cheater and a liar.

But I guess since that was toxic, my actual deepest desire is to understand what happened when he did the things he did, and to be able to finally let go. I just don't know. I don't see that happening, and it's such a struggle.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

My deepest desires...well, I'd like to find true happiness. I'd like to find love and have a family of my own. I would want everyone to be happy as well, and to be financially secure and do what I enjoy in life.

 

[Livelife]

Thank you for the tag @johnDoen. Some of these thoughts in your first line were on my mind this morning. I am glad you are here, I wish you weren't in such painThis isn't a light hearted question for me.
My deepest desire isn't possible because it would include altering time in order to have made a couple of different life choices. And I know there is nothing self caring about dwelling on anything in past experience, it's hard to accomplish being fully in the present all the time (that would be truly living) when still holding onto any level of self judgement which is what I want released.
I was taught Amerigo landed in the "New World"/North America prior to Columbus but apparently was taught wrong and he discovered Rio de Janiero in 1497 and got the honor of having this side of the world named after him

 

[KM76710]

I typically don't desire much of anything, if I were to pick it would be to be wealthy enough to never have to worry and spent the rest of my life even lazier than it is now. And that is especially with the wonkiness of society and jobs and my age now.