Well...for a start, if I wasn't here, I would be beyond the point of clinging to some sort of support...which I'm not, and wasn't when I clicked to join.
First of all, when I posted my first thread where I told my story, I felt bad/anxious/emberresed a bit later and thought it was a stupid idea so asked to have it deleted, along with looking for how to delete my account, immediately. I guess I didn't want to read the responses either since I imagined they wouldn't be "pretty". But yeah, my request was refused (thank god XD), was pleasantly surprised, and that day was one of the best days in a long time (as sad as it might sound, lol...). I felt cared for and understood, and since I was given such kindness, I actually felt *compelled* (in a good way), to return it, and I try to, and if it makes 1 person feel better like I felt better, it's worth it.
This is my short term goal for us...however, in the long term, I hope we can help dig each other out of our situations if it's possible. If not, then make life bearable when it can be. I love the people here, I love sharing nearly everything, and I love the feeling of being loved (in a way) regardless if I know/think I sounded annoying.
I'm not here for long, but it helps, maybe distracts, but maybe that's OK for now, since without it, maybe I wouldn't even have a chance for a future.
Thanks, everyone.