Thank you for inviting me, Walker. Those are very beautiful pictures. 😊
Oh, I wish we could have different seasons where I live. We only have summer and then the rest of the year, the weather would either be sunny or rainy, or just cloudy in between. It gets colder during December that usually lasts until February of the following year. This year had been very different for me and I'm sure experiencing the holidays would feel weirder. I love and prefer cold weather though, than the sweaty feeling of summer or days when it's really hot.
I mentioned this to my mom some days ago that I feel like, the year (or the months) have gone fast. It just feels like yesterday that I was there in the hospital, that I was there in the guneral. It just feels like yesterday that I was going through hell being with the other family (sorry for the negative), but in a few months time, everything that happened will be a year older. I told my mom, "I think I'd have a more peaceful and better Christmas/New Year this year, regardless, because I won't spend time in the hospital/ICU during the holidays and most importantly, I will no longer be with people who never treated me right, who never treated me as a member of their family. I'd be free from that horrible experience". So, I guess part of it, I'm looking forward to the holidays and colder weather. Wish the calendar would turn to 2023 right away lol.
It's the month of October today. In the previous years, this month used to be important/memorable to us because it's the birthday month of ny late partner (well, it falls on October 31st, exactly during Halloween). Now, with the way things had happened, her birthday fits the occasion. She could try to scare me all she wants. I'd never feel scared though. Joking aside, I'm honestly not sure what I'm going to feel once the day comes. They didn't even bother to greet me and just ignored me on my recent birthday, so I guess, I'd feel thevsame. It'll probably just an ordinary for me.
Anyway, sorry for long story (and the negatives) but I honestly feel much more okay now and as I said, looking forward to the next few months until the year ends.