Dear future Evael,
Stop trying the same path over and over, expecting different results each time. Stop trying to pretend everything will magically improve in time. You have the power, you can change it, all you need to do is change and improve.
Keep changing and keep improving but never, ever stay in the same position for long. Always go further. Always strive to be the best you can be; never regress and forsake all the progress you've made. Keep going forwards.
Eventually, everything will improve. Not magically; instead, it will improve because you made it improve. You will change yourself and, in turn, change the world around you.
If you find yourself needing inspiration again, always remember this:
Keep changing, keep improving. Never stay in the same place for long - every stop is only a pause before you once again move on and aim higher. Never regress. Eventually, everything you've aimed for will come true, then you can aim higher still. Always change. Always improve.