@Acy-you are right. Other ppl can have the issue and not know it. I read your note before I went to metg and tried hard not to cry or think totally negative.
It scared me-no, terrified me-to be in this situation again. I have not faced crisis in job setting in 10 years!!!! And never had a co-worker scream at me in front of clieints.
I did not get fired!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Which was a relief. I not really love job, but I have come to depend on $. It is minumum wage, but better than nothing!
I am 11 pm-7 am, 3rd shift overnite staff on weekends only, part-time.
My boss is fair. I was able to let her know my side of things, how I don't like conflict, I am not trying to "start things or cause trouble". She even told me she sees potential in me and I am too hard on myslef.. I know that last part is true. I respect the girl that I have the "problem with" but she is not always truthful. The other girl made errors too; I just have to be careful and think before I say words especially in anger.
What has this episode taught me?
*That I worry a lot and still react with depression when in crisis!!
*That I still need to refine my coping skills and DBT skills that I attempted to learn in past 2 years.
*That loss of my job will not be the end of the world!! My health, family is #1.
*That I STILL & I have to believe Ican learn how to talk to others.
*That other ppl do see me as good person, even is I don't see it yet.
*I can still come out to SF to get support and to help me dry my tears to get thru the day...I am not going in the hospital automatically if I have a one-time depressing crisis/day.
*It could be their (other people) problem and they just take it out on me.
thats just on the top of my head.
I aim to re-establish my career, if I can.....Now is different: With bipolar (unmedicated) OR After bipolar (medicated)...I am not a teacher due to not having coping skills w/ bipolar and I screamed at a principal. I had classroom skills but other weak areas, I suppose.
I have now been one year into social service work and like it. Just not sure. I am taking my time, not sure if going to community college for second degree is for me. I want to study occupational therapy, just uncertain if I can do it or if I fall on my face. again, like teaching.
Thank you all for reading and responding...it is indeed needed, & appreciated.
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