I don't know how, but i have managed to stay in some sort of relationship for over a year now. How can she stay with me when I am so confused? I sometimes find it hard to even talk and she is still there, reassuring me. I sometimes think it is out of pity, as if she knows i wouldn't cope without her. I know i dont deserve her, when she comes here and we are together i know things will change. She will see im not so special, in fact quite the opposite. I hate uncertainty