From how you speak here, it is 100% clear you are not dumb.
@Gonz. I, lol, am a naive and impressionable painter, bumbling through life smashing into and being smashed by some people/things. I won't call myself any seriously bad names because you know why - I have a love for the wonder and magic of life. This connects me to almost everything, humor included. Humor is one of the best healing balms.
hugs