You don't understand but that is okay, I didn't expect anyone too.
I won't explain.
Well, to be fair, im only speaking from one perspective of my anger, at this time. I've gone through alot of anger and it's development, and how it relates and affects my life.
I won't "understand" your situation, and no one will really, if you don't try to talk about it. I mean, i dont know if you want anyone to understand, maybe you like to think your anger is unique, which it is to a degree, and want to keep it just for you. I dont know. Maybe you dont know how to explain it, or maybe youre waiting for someone to explain their anger so you can find someone that may be able to understand you.
Idk. I just know that, it's very difficult to try and talk to you because you dont try and explain yourself, but you post threads alot about how frustrated and angry you are. I suppose you're dealing and coping on your own, and I can only assume you are tired of trying to get help, and are just using this place to vent.
All I can say is, .. well.. Don't cut other people too short just because they say one thing about something. it doesnt mean they can't understand, or havent gone through something similar, but are at a different place now.
Idk what else to say. You know exactly whats going on on your end. If you want to talk to someone about it, or in general about a feeling, you can. But you are going to have to put a little bit of effort in for people too, we're grasping at invisibility. Atleast I am. but if you gave people a little chance, atleast in a general sense, maybe someone can offer you a view that you are shunning off or unaware of.
In anycase, i hope you are feeling ok. You might say you feel horrible, and you may be, but regardless, i still hope through that, that you feel ok. Idk, I dont think you give yourself enough credit. And I really honestly think your anger is protecting yourself, but it is covering the best parts of your life and dreams through protection and shear association. And as a result not letting the best parts of you breath. Or maybe other things in your life are doing that, or other feelings are doing that.
it's difficult to say. I dont know why you are so angry at yourself. Or more importantly, why you think you have to be, and why you think you have to define your future and other peoples with so much anger. What are you afraid of? .. or if that's too far down.. what pisses you off about life so much that it's allowing you to think and be like this?
Thought id ask. who knows..