I just bought xmas gifts for the first time in years for my mother, sister, and her boyfriend, so I'm looking forward to hopefully seeing them soon to give to them. I even bought one for my father, but let's see if I'll actually face him and give it to him.
There's something to being in one of the lowest points of one's life and doing something for someone else I think, whether they deserve it or not. It's been a coping skill for me; I remember memories now... damn, made myself cry again. It's been a long road