I dont want this to come across as sounding mean but i think you need a reality check.
i dont think anyone is dismissing the way you feel about yourself, but you are posting on a peer to peer support site, so people here will naturally want to make suggestions, as they care and may have experience in the subject matter your posting.
If you dont want suggestions and you are off loading thoughts, thats fine.
Any suggestions you are given, you seem to come back instantly with a no, you dont seem open to anything. That is also fine and up to you. While i agree with lara c suggestion about therapy, im not so sure you would be open to it.
I also wonder if when you have disclosure to women your feelings about yourself, and they may offer advice or opinion, you may disagree with their comments, which may be off putting.
I also wonder what your benchmark is for calculating rejection. If you speak to someone random on the internet for a couple of days and they close their reditt account, then is this rejection. Considering that a large number of people on the internet are scammers, doom scrollers, trolls, extremists, and a few good people, i think you might want to evaluate a few things.
I think the fundamental issue here is your lack of openness to any other thinking patterns than the ones your currently having, i have been exactly the same at times.
Sorry if this all sound a bit harsh, i just think you would benefit from thinking about your thought processes.
