My gf and I of 6 years, we broke up about a month ago well actually she just got her belongings and left me out of the blue and called cops so I wouldn't contact her ever again without my knowledge of a breakup. Fast forward to 2 nights ago we talked again, it had been 40 days of no contact. While she was alone she hooked up/crushed with a guy, he's 19 she's 23. I'm 24, I will say I have cheated before and it was a big deal that we were recovering from. It's been a year since that incident. Now she keeps saying how she regrets talking to me, how she's turned off by my anger , how she can't do an unhealthy and toxic relation with me. (I was mad at the initial though of her cheating) Then she will flip and say " I love you want to be with you I never wanted to leave" all the way to " I wish we hadn't talked, I wasn't ready, I can't do this, maybe we should not get back together" , I apologized for my quick anger but it hurt. Is this salvageable ? She's my best friend but I can't continue being strung along by her emotions and contradiction. Since we do love each other it's hard to say we won't try. What is the most mature way to handle this? I was a complete mess during the breakup, I mean suicide attempt mad. I want it to work, but I don't want her dangling it and changing feelings more than actually wanting to try it out, it's like I want to try and she's like SEE THIS IS WHY I LEFT. Her last words were " I don't want to do this I'm sorry, I got reattached to you too quick again" then she agreed we are going to talk later on tonight how do i try my best regardless of the outcome? I obviously want her forever I'm her first love (I've had 2 )Seems like wants to play the field? Can she actually be mature and mutually patch this or will she keep pointing out my faults and just make my ego plummit.