Hi there, I need some advice on my situation. I get these thoughts of self harm randomly when positive things aren't going well for me such as my relationship. I feel trapped sometimes and alone. My two bestfriends hardly speak to me and never give me the help I need, to where as they make it about themselves including my family. I am gay and engaged but I feel like I'm lost and trapped. I can't find a job, I have no money. I'm sorta going blind and my partner seems to not really see that I'm struggling while he has a job, is getting a new one starting soon, gives his mother money. Provides for his dog(his baby) and not our cat. I love him but am sorta falling out due to all this drama with him. But I want to stay and make it work. There's a long list of other things but I don't want to bore anyone. I feel like me leaving this world is the only thing I can think off. I know it's selfish but like I said it's just a thought, a strong one today. I'm always home alone, blurry vision and it's not like our life is terrible but I'm young and I feel so whipped. I need someone to talk to because I've reached my limit.