I couldn't see my regular psychiatrist and had to see another one at the facility. From my experiences, it's a standard question for them to ask if you want to kill yourself or not. But how honest can you be in that department without fearing you'll say something you'll regret? She asked if I thought about killing myself and I said yes, every day. She seemed shocked or something...I'm used to wanting to kill myself, so to me that answer is normal. I guess to other people, though, it's shocking. After that, I didn't want to tell her I had a plan (or several, for that matter) when she asked because she started bringing up inpatient care and asked if I thought I needed to go to the hospital. Truthfully, all it would be is a waste of money because it won't fix me. And, not only that, I'd only panic being there because I won't be able to see my fiancee every day like I do now, and I can't handle that. I mean, it works for some people, but I'm not one of those people...however, they don't care about that, which means I have to lie about my true feelings to the doctor. Doesn't seem too fair.