made small attempt last night

[Johnny]

sorry you feel so bad bud but you should be glad that people really care for you as noone was there for me. I hope to god you realise that even having one person that cares makes living all the more worth while. There are plenty of people in here that care and enjoy talking to you so be strong and hope you pick up soon. Take care

Johnny

 

[~CazzaAngel~]

Anyone know if Dead Alive is ok?, haven't seen any posts by him lately

 

[butterfly]

I know you are happy for getting away from the cops and hospital with lying. I too thought I was smart to lie to the doctors and made up a lie for my attempt. Now that some time has passed I regret doing that because I am getting worse. I should have told them the truth even if that meant going in to the hospital.

I hope that you have rethought this and are getting some help. You have so many people who care about you. Don't let what any trolls might say get to you, you are loved and wanted in this world!

 

[Dead Alive]

I been in lots of therapy and been hospitalized a couple of times. I was in a coma in August for a failed attempt. I am doing better. I cant spend as much time here as I used to because my therapist says this site is feeding my suicidal idealogy. Says I am not strong enough right now to be helping people here while I am a mess.

I been praying a lot. I have friends here who hug me and are managing my meds and have my gun in their care. I am not as suicidal as I once was. I am starting to hope again.

For all those who think there is no hope... fight! You got to fight and choose to not give up or you will DIE. For me... I am trusting God to see the big picture and to know more than I do. And you know what... one day I will be strong enough to return here and help a lot of you. That is my hope... to turn the shit in my life to something good. It takes courage and it takes faith... and if I give up... who will be there that can pick people like you up that has walked in your shoes? Few are able to do that and you know it. Therapists go by textbooks... I go by personal experience. I am fighting to live... and you must fight to live... because suicide is the easy way out and you have something to offer... you can make something of your life... you can inspire countless others. Or you can destroy it all... and snuff out that candle that flickers in the night... leaving the others around you to stumble around in despair.

Jonathan

 

[thecleric]

I been in lots of therapy and been hospitalized a couple of times

Sigh--you sound like it.

I am doing better.

For now. Give yourself a few months, and see how much you backslide.

 

[thecleric]

They sent a twinky twuck... a paddywagon... I hurried best could got dressed and went out to them... cause I didnt want them busting my door in and finding my gun or drugs.

I could feel the stuff hitting me... I forced myself to maintain my composure... watching my speech and all... not easy

...
I was so damn good at lying... I knew how to play their game cause I have been 5150'd before...

again asked me twice if I was suicidal...

I again asked why she would think that... I made a determined effort to focus attention on her instead of on me... asked her questions about why she chose to be a nurse ... and so forth... told her I thought it was because she wanted to help people... told her I was same way... created a bond between us.... so she would trust me...

it worked

...told her that I had been drinking... and that I tripped and fell into some briars and got cut up...

it worked!!!

I must say I'm impressed with your resourcefullness. It must have been difficult to keep your head while the OD is hitting you.

Sorry it had to come to that.

 

[thecleric]

Many people do climb out of that dark hole hon. I can attest to that.

And many others don't. I can attest to that.

Honest, it can get better.

But not necessarily.

:hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug:

And certainly not if that's all there is to offer! :puke:

 

[TLA]

For now. Give yourself a few months, and see how much you backslide.

Man cleric~what a hopeless sack of coal you are. :whack: We all stumble, then, continue to find some peace in the midst of our problems. Try it, you can disagree.....just don't rain on me. I have enough puddles in my life. I need all the hope I can find.

TLA

 

[thecleric]

Man cleric~what a hopeless sack of coal you are. ...just don't rain on me. I have enough puddles in my life. I need all the hope I can find.

TLA

Heh--if what I have to say actually makes any difference to your mood, you must be in pretty bad shape.

How's that for hopeless?

 

[blackfire]

Sorry to hear that, hope all goes well.

 

[immure]

hope you stop in soon and say hey. would love to here where your at.
:massmoon: :rockon:

 

[AfraidofMyself]

They said they were tipped by someone in germany... I knew immediately who it was. Told them; that she was the suicidal one... actually we both are.

You're lucky a URL to your postings here were not given. I know here (in a very tiny town) police will actually type in the URL and check it out. A boy was arrested once because he posted on a forum that he was very angry at a classmate and just wanted to kill her--someone called him in and said he was posting about being violent in school and such and he actually got jail time and no longer is allowed access to a computer without supervision--even then it's very limited.
Someone really cares a lot about you to call in about it. Maybe instead of ending your time here on Earth you can give her some of your time? Waste it on a friendship, good laughs and silliness--might as well, right? :handinhan I mean, if you can't end it you might as well waste what you have, right? :smile: And maybe you'll find that things turn around for you -- and maybe you'll make someone else's life turn around too.:smile:

 

[ProperlyLast]

Don't disagree with your friend in trying to stop your suicide. It would be a betrayal not to. But what is wrong is going to the police. There are better ways. Cops deal with CRIMINALS. They will treat you the same. Fuck that. They'll take your rights, they'll convict you of things. If my problems got legal, I could lose my driver's license, my second ammendment, and my liberty. Being "suicidal" is an easy ticket to being locked up. I am completely against that. It's facist. I'm glad the German acted. Though I'd try to inform another group, any group besides the arm of the law. Suicide isn't a crime.