there are normally only two days a year that really get to me. i am tryning so hard to be strong and not let it hurt this year but three days away from kiddo birthday. i just dont know how to handle it. so many have left my life recently, its like when will i get a break. how do i keep going. i will be doing something in rememberence of my kiddo to celebrate the life they lived. even that is painful. i know that your not in any pain i truly believe my kiddo is watching over me. but i stil miss its still kpainful. i wish i never regreted having my kiddo although i was young. i cheerished every minute with my kiddo i have regrets but not having her.im so lost at this moment dont feel strong enough to face this on my own this year